The Process of Getting Back on the Horse

Here is what happened. I weighed myself last Friday. There are some women that I know that are also trying to loose weight so we all meet on Fridays to weigh and chat. I lost three pounds! For some reason I thought I’d loose more. Looking back I don’t know why I thought that. I know one – two pounds a week is great especially since it had only been four full days of watching what I eat (I prefer to say watching what I eat instead of diet because diet seems like a temporary thing that you do for awhile and then stop. I plan to always be aware of what I eat – just like most thin people are.)

Initially I didn’t even give myself credit for the three pounds and gave some excuse as though I didn’t really lose them. (Isn’t it amazing how the mind can talk you into certain things that don’t really make sense?) So when I got home I decided I didn’t want to eat what I was supposed to and I ate “just a little taste” of something and then that turned into a big taste. Then since I had blown that I decided to eat a favorite dessert while I was in the mode of cheating. You know how it goes from there. Unfortunately the last three days I haven’t been true to the plan. It is hard to get back on once you get off – I need to remember that one.

It is strange I am starting to wonder if it’s really worth it.


Dr. Beck in the Beck Diet Solution knows that we would be feeling this and has a response. I will go back and read my list of why I’m doing this and I will remind myself that it is hard.

I have to thank Emily for her comment. You are right it is hard. If it wasn’t we would have done it by now. Hard has never hindered me from doing what I really have wanted to do in life. I will not let it stop me here. I just need to remember that I want to. I need to remember how great it feels to eat right and to normal fullness – energy! (I think merely over eating makes me tired – even if I eat the same kind of food.)

I read the section about weighing yourself and getting back on track and sabotaging thoughts today. I will reread those again and will try to get them in my brain and try to get them to be automatic responses.


Just writing this has helped me feel stronger and has helped me feel my desire to be healthy again.

I’m pumped. Here we go. No more excuses. If it is not written down then it doesn’t go in the mouth. If I want to change one of my diet rules, (This is a classic I try to pull on myself when I really want a snack.) then it must be done when I’m making my menu.

Specific things I need to do.

1. Eat alone – no kids around. (Except at dinner time.)
2. Eat my vegetables and fruit at lunch first before I eat my main item. This is because after I eat my main item I often don’t feel full and want to eat more. If I eat the fruit and vegetable first then I will be more full when I finish the rest and more able to turn my focus away from the food.
3. Get to bed early so I can get up early for my exercise on Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday.
4. Eat Slowly. (I’ve actually gotten more used to eating sitting down so that it kind of feels weird eating standing up.)
5. MUST write food down the night before. Take the time.