Inside The Brain of a Homemaker

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Focusing on me, focuses on them

I have four boys under the age of eight.
We are building a new home and are acting as our general contractor.
My husband sold his business and is now starting a new job at a start-up company.
My one year old still does not sleep through the night.
I home school our children.
I eat when I'm tired, stressed and overwhelmed. (Things that happen often.)

So that is where I'm starting.

I am 5'6" tall.
I weigh 170lbs.
I want to weigh 140.

I want to eat more healthful foods.

The reasons I want to loose the weight are...

1. There are not many people around here that homeschool and they have a preconcieved idea that homeschooling moms are frumpy and weird. I would like to look good so I can be an example that home schooling is do-able and we're not weird.

2. When I eat under control I feel better about myself. When you feel good about yourself you are more patient and kind to others.

3. I love fashion and I would like to wear cute stuff that looks cute on me.

Here are the ways I plan on achieving this goal.

I need to be more regimented - this is something I did very well until I had children.

Each Sunday I will plan what I will eat for the next week (Saturday is when we do our shopping so I have to plan in advance).

I will also plan on the calendar -
weekly out time: visit the library and read, shop, shop on-line, blog on-line, go with friends, etc. (this helps me want to be thin - even if I'm shopping for books, kids clothes, or home decor and even if I don't buy anything - just regrouping)

weekly date: I long for a good relationship there - connection helps me not eat to try to get that.

monthly temple: this always makes me feel good

Each Morning-
I will exercise
Read Beck Diet Solution tips, blogs and response cards
Write down my food for the day
Get Ready for the day

During the Babies Nap-
Response cards, goals and pictures
I will read scriptures (20 min)
clean the house
do the laundry
cook dinner
then if there is time I will work on my 'to do' list and alternate it with
organization (10 min)
blog journal (15 min)
scrapbook (10 min) I put pictures in slip covers and every now nad then I type a story to go with a picture.
email
write - either for my blog, journal or scrapbook (20 min)
visit other blogs (10 min)
Read - if there is any other time which there usually isn't.

After dinner is reserved to do outside cleaning and tidy
Around 8:00 I will get myself ready for bed (teeth, face, pray). Then I will read or spend time with my kids. At 9:00 we will pray and get the kids ready for bed. Then I read my book of choice (10 min) and then my response cards, goals and reasons.

If I eat what is on my card I know I will lose weight. Dr. Beck says to weigh yourself every day, but I know that I work better if I don't weigh, but just follow my plan.

My goal is to be 145 by January 1st.

I have to do these things. I have to be strong. I have to be selfish. I have to look out for me. I don't want to be a fat person - that is not how I pictured my life.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Kelly,

I am a California, homeschooling mom. I also have 4 boys..and 5 girls. :)
My second oldest is on a mission right now.
I did the Beck diet for a month and it worked really well. I started again yesterday.

Love your blog.

Callie

Kelly said...

What a small world! I thought the only thing we would have in common is a desire to get healthy and lose pounds. Homeschool, LDS, and a bunch of boys. Cool. I would like to know how you do 9 kids. I love kids, but I'm so maxed out. Give me any tips you can.
Thanks for commenting. I usually don't tell people I know about this blog. This is my secret little history where I can record the trials and triumphs of my life. I have another blog that my friends and fmaily go to to see pictures and updates.
Talk to you later.
Kelly
PS I have done really well today on staying with my eating plan. I'm entering into the hardest part of the day, but I feel good.

Anonymous said...

Hi Kelly!
Are you going to have more kids? I highly recommend it :)
I did great today on Beck. I even went VT-out to dinner and came home proud of myself.
I love your blog. Someday I'll join the land of blogging.
Do you want me to check in here or through email?

Kelly said...

Going out to eat and being happy after is GREAT! Are you on a specific diet? What is your plan? Would checking in on email be easier? Here is my email and we can try it both ways and see what we like best. southwicksmall@hotmail.com
I would have more kids if my body, sanity, marriage, and such could handle it. I'm not sure if we really will have more kids. We'll see, but right now I feel we wouldn't come out of the pregnancy well if I did. I'm fertle (sp) as they come so nothing is imposible. I just don't get how you do pregnancy and still raise kids. My last one was pretty tough. Labor and delivery was a piece of cake, but that 40 weeks of pregnancy were horrible. How close in age are your kids?