Inside The Brain of a Homemaker

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Day 17 - NO CHOICE

The NO CHOICE is wonderful to me and frees up my mind and energy during the day. I used to eat to get energy (of coarse it was always after the internal fight about if I should eat or not). I have noticed so much more energy and I think it has happened so soon because my mental mind is free. Writing all that I eat and stilcking to it is freeing to me. (Kind of like following God. It may seem restrictive, but in the end you are not chained by addictions or bad habits, etc.) If I really wanted to eat something one day, then I can plan for it the next day – in moderation. When I plan it I find there is no impulse eating of binge eating.

I do summer school with my kids ages 6, 3, and 1 in the summer. One day a week I combine with a friend and we do it together and let the kids play a game at the end. The kids love it. Our snack today was watermelon and it smelled so good and looked so good. I was offered and for a second I thought, “It’s just watermelon. That is good for you. It won’t hurt.” But immediately the voice said, “But it’s not on your plan. Even though it’s not good for you, you didn’t plan to eat it and it won’t hurt you to not eat it. If you eat it it will be easier to eat something else off your plan next time.” I’m so proud of myself. I didn’t eat it and I stuck with my plan and I strenthened my resistance muscle. Yay me!!!!!

PS I’ve been so happy these last couple of days because I know I’m doing what is good for my body and I feel in control! I need to remember feeling in control taste better than a spur of the moment treat, besides there is a time and a place and I can have the treat later and still feel good. Win – Win.

Spencer W. Kimball said, “The highest achievement of spirituality comes as we conquer the flesh.” I feel I’m becoming more spiritually minded as I go on the Beck Diet Solution Journey. As a result I’ve felt a feeling of accomplishment, control and happiness which are all gifts of the Holy Spirit. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. - Galatians 5:22-23

Well things started out so well, but at dinner I didn’t eat my before dinner carrots – which I think really helps. I took a few extra bites.

Solution: Eat carrots before dinner.
Reminder: I still want to eat, but it’s okay. In a few minutes when my mind catches up with my brain then I will be okay.

Also after dinner I really wanted this great ice cream that we have. I said to my hubby (a.k.a. coach) “I really want some ice cream.” He said, “Then do it. You wrote it in the plan.” I said, “I already did it.” He said, “Oh, then don’t.” Somehow when he put it all that simply it worked. If it’s in your plan then do it, if it’s not then don’t do it. NO CHOICE.

I also had some hard things come up that usually cause me to eat. I didn't give in!!! I was very tired from an early morning workout. So mid-afternoon on I was tempted to eat a little something, anything, to try to boost my energy. Response: It won't really boost my energy for long and I'll be right back where I started, but more worn out because I will be sad that I ate what I did. I also got a headache and wanted to eat. This stems from when I was a kid and used to get headaches a lot and the Dr. said it was because I needed to eat more. Since then it has been my defense even though it doesn't always work - usually doesn't.

Menu for Tomorrow
B-cereal
Banana
Milk

L ½ egg sandwich
Salad (if have or carrots)
Apple

Before D. 4 carrots

D Tatortot casserole (this is the item I will dish extra just so I can leave some on my plate. This will be hard for me since this casserole is something I usually overeat. I will section off 1/3 of what I was going to eat. Once it is decided – NO CHOICE. I will use the behavioral technique of getting up and leaving if it becomes too much. This one really makes me nervous because it is hard enough to stop when I have to put more on my plate, but to stop when it is already there will be so tempting.)
Green beans if we have them or corn

Dessert Apple

Floating Beverage V8 (this means I can eat this anytime throughout the day, if I want)

I have to admit I’m curious how many calories or points my plan is. Maybe one of these days I’ll count – might be fun.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sounds like you have a great helper... if you planned it, fine... if it's not on your plan... no choice. That makes it ever so much easier. It is interesting to see what the calorie count is, but it takes time. Planning what and how much (in reasonable amounts), sticking to it, and tracking seems to me to be more time efficient, AS LONG AS YOU ARE DROPPING WEIGHT. If you stall out, you may want to take the time to count calories. I do it because I have time and get a kick out of graphs and evidence of progress (other than just the scale). Hang in there.
Emily

Kelly said...

I think you totally have a good point. I will weigh in this tomorrow and that will give me an idea of how things are going. Until then I am usually pressed for time and as you pointed out, there is no need IF I'm dropping weight. Thanks, I think you just saved me a lot of time. I can't wait for my first 5 pound loss. I'm going shopping! (I hardly ever go shopping due to lack of time, not desire so this is a real treat for me.