B - cereal
banana
milk
Snack - one slice of deli turkey
grapes
Lunch - Turkey Sandwich - lettuce, tomato, cucumber
grapes
Snack - brownies and ice cream (hubby and I plan to enjoy a movie while the kids nap today.
Exercise - Pump Class
Walking in a parade :)
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Friday, June 29, 2007
Actual Food Today
I ate all that was on plan except carrots for dinner.
In addition
I ate about 9 triscuits
1 piece of cheese
4 chewy candies
I'm really happy with that. There were several times that I wanted to eat so many other things. I stayed strong and followed Emily's advice. When I really wanted to make brownies or have chips and salsa, I instead ate something on my plan. At 4:00 I had 1/2 my dinner and at 4:45 I had the rest. It worked so well. Those were my boring times of the day and I knew I would be out and about (at a parade) for the evening.
I'm so proud of myself. It wasn't perfect, but it was good. It was a lot less food than I normally eat. I ate lots of fruits and veges and had water too. Until this evening I didn't eat through my slow moments of the day.
I was up two pounds today. I'm actually happy with that. When you eat until you are stuffed and don't workout very much then you gain and, the last couple of weeks, I have found that when I follow plan pretty closely, I lost. I feel in control.
I will lose next week because I will stay on track.
Rewards. When I lose 5lbs I get to go shopping for clothes for me.
When I have 7 days of good eating then I get to do something special for me. If I have a day that didn't go quite right, like humans have, then I will put off my fun reward for one day. I don't have to be perfect to get the reward, I just have to be doing more things that help than things that hinder. I have written a list and it varies like playing mind games, doing chemistry (to keep my brain strong), watching a movie with hubby, a date with hubby, a hike with hubby, going to a bookstore alone, reading alone for a couple of hours, going on a group date with friends, and getting my hair done. That is all I can remember right now. There is a longer list that I wrote down. Can't wait to do them. They are all things that help me feel more alive and enriched and have nothing to do with kids. (There are several things that make me feel good simply because I see that my kids are enjoying themselves. I don't particuarly like what we are doing, but I love that my kids are happy. None of those things are on the list.)
In addition
I ate about 9 triscuits
1 piece of cheese
4 chewy candies
I'm really happy with that. There were several times that I wanted to eat so many other things. I stayed strong and followed Emily's advice. When I really wanted to make brownies or have chips and salsa, I instead ate something on my plan. At 4:00 I had 1/2 my dinner and at 4:45 I had the rest. It worked so well. Those were my boring times of the day and I knew I would be out and about (at a parade) for the evening.
I'm so proud of myself. It wasn't perfect, but it was good. It was a lot less food than I normally eat. I ate lots of fruits and veges and had water too. Until this evening I didn't eat through my slow moments of the day.
I was up two pounds today. I'm actually happy with that. When you eat until you are stuffed and don't workout very much then you gain and, the last couple of weeks, I have found that when I follow plan pretty closely, I lost. I feel in control.
I will lose next week because I will stay on track.
Rewards. When I lose 5lbs I get to go shopping for clothes for me.
When I have 7 days of good eating then I get to do something special for me. If I have a day that didn't go quite right, like humans have, then I will put off my fun reward for one day. I don't have to be perfect to get the reward, I just have to be doing more things that help than things that hinder. I have written a list and it varies like playing mind games, doing chemistry (to keep my brain strong), watching a movie with hubby, a date with hubby, a hike with hubby, going to a bookstore alone, reading alone for a couple of hours, going on a group date with friends, and getting my hair done. That is all I can remember right now. There is a longer list that I wrote down. Can't wait to do them. They are all things that help me feel more alive and enriched and have nothing to do with kids. (There are several things that make me feel good simply because I see that my kids are enjoying themselves. I don't particuarly like what we are doing, but I love that my kids are happy. None of those things are on the list.)
Missing a Child
Hubby went on a business trip and took 6yo since he was going through my parents town. I have missed both of them. I'm used to hubby going on trips and still miss him, but it was a different feeling to miss 6yo. He was gone two full days and one night. I can’t imagine the empty feeling one must feel when they know a child will not return because of death. A mother shares so much of herself with her children that it almost seems as though the child takes a part of her with them where ever they go. This is a good thing. It means that the child will always have his mother’s love to rely on even when apart and it means the mother lived and truly experienced joy and Christ-like love.
3yo has really missed 6yo and keeps asking when he will be back periodically throughout the day. Mothers love when their children love each other.
I must go 1yo and 3yo are upstairs doing that laugh that you know they must be upto something...
3yo has really missed 6yo and keeps asking when he will be back periodically throughout the day. Mothers love when their children love each other.
I must go 1yo and 3yo are upstairs doing that laugh that you know they must be upto something...
Food for Today
B- 2 plums
cereal
banana
milk
L- beans and rice
peas
nectarine
Before D - 4 baby carrots
D- Peanut butter and Jelly sandwich
peas
carrots
floating food
kefir
V8
Egg
exercise: yoga
I'm being lenient on this. If the boys nap well then I will do 30-60 minutes. Hubby is out of town until after dinner so I want to just get by. (This should explain the peanut butter sandwich for dinner). He was gone all day yesterday too, but took 6yo with him since his business trip is in the same area where my parents live. 6yo is having a little visit while dh works.
cereal
banana
milk
L- beans and rice
peas
nectarine
Before D - 4 baby carrots
D- Peanut butter and Jelly sandwich
peas
carrots
floating food
kefir
V8
Egg
exercise: yoga
I'm being lenient on this. If the boys nap well then I will do 30-60 minutes. Hubby is out of town until after dinner so I want to just get by. (This should explain the peanut butter sandwich for dinner). He was gone all day yesterday too, but took 6yo with him since his business trip is in the same area where my parents live. 6yo is having a little visit while dh works.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Growing Content not Old
During one of my laundry folding sessions listening to great talks, I listened to Mary Ellen Edmonds talk about growing old. Here are some of the quotes she talked about.
Don’t think of it as growing old, but growing happy, growing grateful, growing content, or growing kind.
“Live with enthusiasm. Nobody grows old by deserting their ideals. Years wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul.
You are
As young as your faith...as old as your doubt.
As young as your self confidence...as old as your fear
As young as your hope...as old as your despair “
By Gen. Douglas McArthur
Don’t think of it as growing old, but growing happy, growing grateful, growing content, or growing kind.
“Live with enthusiasm. Nobody grows old by deserting their ideals. Years wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul.
You are
As young as your faith...as old as your doubt.
As young as your self confidence...as old as your fear
As young as your hope...as old as your despair “
By Gen. Douglas McArthur
A Lifetime is Plenty fo Time
I have two goals for tomorrow.
#1. Only eat what I wrote down.
#2. Only eat what I wrote down.
I need to accept that at time during the day it is normal and perfectly fine to be hungry.
Today I was supposed to have salad for part of my lunch, but since it tasted horrible I decided to have chips instead. Chips were not on my plan and that was the beginning of a day long over eating extravaganza. Tomorrow is another day and a lifetime is plenty of time to work on improving my eating habits.
Also I noticed that there is calcium in my multi-vitamin. Does that cover my bases or is that not enough?
Weigh in tomorrow. I know that eating right and sticking to my goals will affect my confidence and self-esteem in a positive way.
#1. Only eat what I wrote down.
#2. Only eat what I wrote down.
I need to accept that at time during the day it is normal and perfectly fine to be hungry.
Today I was supposed to have salad for part of my lunch, but since it tasted horrible I decided to have chips instead. Chips were not on my plan and that was the beginning of a day long over eating extravaganza. Tomorrow is another day and a lifetime is plenty of time to work on improving my eating habits.
Also I noticed that there is calcium in my multi-vitamin. Does that cover my bases or is that not enough?
Weigh in tomorrow. I know that eating right and sticking to my goals will affect my confidence and self-esteem in a positive way.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
June 27th, 2005
Each day I try to read diet related stuff to keep me motivated. I was reading beckdietsolution.wordpress.com and found this quote about emotional eating. It is something I’d need to read often. I thought you might enjoy it too.
“During the group today we discussed that dieters need to remind themselves that eating will only serve as a temporary distraction; it won’t solve the problem. And actually, unplanned eating will only cause dieters to have two problems – the original problem, and now the additional problem of going off plan, feeling weak and out of control, and potentially gaining weight. Dieters need to squarely ask themselves, “Do I want to have one problem or two?”
“We also discussed the notion that negative emotions are a part of life, and that it’s okay to feel badly sometimes. We live in a feel-good society where many people think that experiencing negative emotions is somehow bad or wrong. It’s important for dieters to learn that they can tolerate feeling bad and that it’s perfectly normal.”
I don’t know if you remember that awhile ago I was going to punish myself with waking up early and doing yoga if I didn’t eat right. That went out the window. I need sleep and I sometimes eat when I‘m tired. I think that would be like kicking myself when I ‘m down. I’m just going to reward myself with good behavior.
“Cheer up your hearts, and remember that ye are free to act for yourselves.” This is 2 Nephi 10:23. Doesn’t it work well when you are thinking about food choices? Why do we act like victims when we can’t eat something? We CAN eat it, but we CHOOSE not to. When you feel empowered by choices, it is easier to stick to your goal.
Well, once again my afternoon workout didn’t workout. :) I’m not sure how to fix this. I work out Tuesday and Thursday and Saturday mornings doing a weight/cardio class- mostly weights. I would like to have two other days to do cardio workout. Friday mornings I go to the gym which leaves me Monday morning and Wednesday mornings to do my laundry and listen to my uplifting talks. I need a time for laundry AND the talks.
I just had an idea. Since going to the gym doesn’t always work in the afternoon, but I love to fold laundry, maybe I could workout every morning and change to folding laundry while I listen to the talks during nap time. It is hard for me to get motivated to do much by the time nap time rolls around. Usually I’d just rather eat or sleep or be in the computer, but since I like my talks, I think I could motivate myself to follow this plan. I think I’ll try this.
So here is my tentative new schedule to try. Monday, Wednesday, and Friday early morning cardio workout. (Monday and Friday will be 3.5mph on the tread mill at a 15% grade.) Wednesday will be running. Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday will be my awesome Power Pump Class. I feel good about that.
Nap Time Schedule will be
Eat lunch
Put Baby Down
Workbooks with big kids and then group read time
Big kids have quiet time while I read scriptures (I can hear scriptures on the internet for free so while they are being read I will fold laundry. I will listen to a chapter or two and then read and study more in depth on my own.)
Fold Laundry or Clean (30 minutes)
Tidy (15 minutes) (while I do the next three things on my list, 6yo learns and plays with Time 4 Learning. When he is done he can play.)
Make Dinner
Do To Do List
Computer time (20-30 minutes)
Sound good? We’ll give it a try.
While I’m writing down my schedule here is the rest
Monday Mornings – summer school with friends
Tuesday Mornings – field trip or fun park
Wednesday Mornings – water play
Thursday Mornings – Story time at the library
Friday Mornings – weigh in with friends and then computers at the library
During the afternoons I‘d like to vacuum and clean out my van. The kids usually just free play. We eat around 5:30 PM.
I’d like to fit in Yoga somewhere. I’m not sure where to put it except to put it on my To Do List and just try to fit it in when the kids are napping.
Afternoon and Evening Activities
Monday Evening – Family Night – spiritual lesson, song and fun activity
Tuesday Evening – 6yo T-ball practice (coach lets 3yo play too at practice.)
Wednesday Evening – open (could go for a walk, watch TV, swim or play soccer or b-ball or work in the garden)
Thursday Evening - (could go for a walk, watch TV, or play soccer or b-ball, garden or have a date in or out with hubby)
Friday Evening – fun family activity, garden, or date with hubby or go somewhere as a family
Saturday Evening – it is fun to be social and invite others over for games or dinner
“During the group today we discussed that dieters need to remind themselves that eating will only serve as a temporary distraction; it won’t solve the problem. And actually, unplanned eating will only cause dieters to have two problems – the original problem, and now the additional problem of going off plan, feeling weak and out of control, and potentially gaining weight. Dieters need to squarely ask themselves, “Do I want to have one problem or two?”
“We also discussed the notion that negative emotions are a part of life, and that it’s okay to feel badly sometimes. We live in a feel-good society where many people think that experiencing negative emotions is somehow bad or wrong. It’s important for dieters to learn that they can tolerate feeling bad and that it’s perfectly normal.”
I don’t know if you remember that awhile ago I was going to punish myself with waking up early and doing yoga if I didn’t eat right. That went out the window. I need sleep and I sometimes eat when I‘m tired. I think that would be like kicking myself when I ‘m down. I’m just going to reward myself with good behavior.
“Cheer up your hearts, and remember that ye are free to act for yourselves.” This is 2 Nephi 10:23. Doesn’t it work well when you are thinking about food choices? Why do we act like victims when we can’t eat something? We CAN eat it, but we CHOOSE not to. When you feel empowered by choices, it is easier to stick to your goal.
Well, once again my afternoon workout didn’t workout. :) I’m not sure how to fix this. I work out Tuesday and Thursday and Saturday mornings doing a weight/cardio class- mostly weights. I would like to have two other days to do cardio workout. Friday mornings I go to the gym which leaves me Monday morning and Wednesday mornings to do my laundry and listen to my uplifting talks. I need a time for laundry AND the talks.
I just had an idea. Since going to the gym doesn’t always work in the afternoon, but I love to fold laundry, maybe I could workout every morning and change to folding laundry while I listen to the talks during nap time. It is hard for me to get motivated to do much by the time nap time rolls around. Usually I’d just rather eat or sleep or be in the computer, but since I like my talks, I think I could motivate myself to follow this plan. I think I’ll try this.
So here is my tentative new schedule to try. Monday, Wednesday, and Friday early morning cardio workout. (Monday and Friday will be 3.5mph on the tread mill at a 15% grade.) Wednesday will be running. Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday will be my awesome Power Pump Class. I feel good about that.
Nap Time Schedule will be
Eat lunch
Put Baby Down
Workbooks with big kids and then group read time
Big kids have quiet time while I read scriptures (I can hear scriptures on the internet for free so while they are being read I will fold laundry. I will listen to a chapter or two and then read and study more in depth on my own.)
Fold Laundry or Clean (30 minutes)
Tidy (15 minutes) (while I do the next three things on my list, 6yo learns and plays with Time 4 Learning. When he is done he can play.)
Make Dinner
Do To Do List
Computer time (20-30 minutes)
Sound good? We’ll give it a try.
While I’m writing down my schedule here is the rest
Monday Mornings – summer school with friends
Tuesday Mornings – field trip or fun park
Wednesday Mornings – water play
Thursday Mornings – Story time at the library
Friday Mornings – weigh in with friends and then computers at the library
During the afternoons I‘d like to vacuum and clean out my van. The kids usually just free play. We eat around 5:30 PM.
I’d like to fit in Yoga somewhere. I’m not sure where to put it except to put it on my To Do List and just try to fit it in when the kids are napping.
Afternoon and Evening Activities
Monday Evening – Family Night – spiritual lesson, song and fun activity
Tuesday Evening – 6yo T-ball practice (coach lets 3yo play too at practice.)
Wednesday Evening – open (could go for a walk, watch TV, swim or play soccer or b-ball or work in the garden)
Thursday Evening - (could go for a walk, watch TV, or play soccer or b-ball, garden or have a date in or out with hubby)
Friday Evening – fun family activity, garden, or date with hubby or go somewhere as a family
Saturday Evening – it is fun to be social and invite others over for games or dinner
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Increasing Femininity
I feel badly that the feminists have done little to perserve femininity. Instead there is little that is feminine about them. Being feminine is not only fun, but it helps us to be better mothers, wives and people in general.
Here is a list of feminine characteristics from a very old book, but I still think many of them are so important to keep practicing. I need to work on most of them, but I'm a work in progress. A trim and disciplined body has been top of my list lately.
Christian Charm Course
Increasing Femininity
By Emily Hunter
A Trim and Disciplined Body
Vitality
Careful Grooming
Dainty, Pretty Clothes
Youthful, Girlish Styles
Quiet, Conservative Dress
Fresh Faced Makeup
Soft, Clean Hair
A Ready Smile
A Delicate Fragrance
Clean, Lovely Hands
Abstention from Tobacco
Abstention from Alcohol
Clean Speech
Purity of Thought and Life
A Lovely, Graceful Walk
A Manner of Sitting Prettily
Queen-like Posture
Soft, Gentle Speech
Pleasant Vocal Tones
A Refined Vocabulary
A Kind Tongue
A Reverent Attitude
A Peace Loving Disposition
Self Control
Thoughtfulness of Others
Ladylike Reserve
Sincerity and Naturalness
A Forgiving Disposition
Dignity
Self Respect
Unblemished Integrity
Honor
Virtue
Optimism
Sexual Purity
Here is a list of feminine characteristics from a very old book, but I still think many of them are so important to keep practicing. I need to work on most of them, but I'm a work in progress. A trim and disciplined body has been top of my list lately.
Christian Charm Course
Increasing Femininity
By Emily Hunter
A Trim and Disciplined Body
Vitality
Careful Grooming
Dainty, Pretty Clothes
Youthful, Girlish Styles
Quiet, Conservative Dress
Fresh Faced Makeup
Soft, Clean Hair
A Ready Smile
A Delicate Fragrance
Clean, Lovely Hands
Abstention from Tobacco
Abstention from Alcohol
Clean Speech
Purity of Thought and Life
A Lovely, Graceful Walk
A Manner of Sitting Prettily
Queen-like Posture
Soft, Gentle Speech
Pleasant Vocal Tones
A Refined Vocabulary
A Kind Tongue
A Reverent Attitude
A Peace Loving Disposition
Self Control
Thoughtfulness of Others
Ladylike Reserve
Sincerity and Naturalness
A Forgiving Disposition
Dignity
Self Respect
Unblemished Integrity
Honor
Virtue
Optimism
Sexual Purity
Monday, June 25, 2007
Actual Food for Today
Breakfast - ground beef
Here is what happened. I gave my kids their normal pancakes due to a quick cleaning of the bedrooms of the house. While I was flipping pancakes, I cooked a bunch of ground beef that we got on a great sale at a natural food store. ($1.69/lb is a great price for normal ground beef, but for no hormone beef that is fantastic around here.) So I cook them up and put them in sandwich bags. Each bag holds about 1lb and then I freeze them and pull them out whenever I need a pound of ground beef.
I was also running late to go to my friends house for our weekly summer school so I ate the ground beef for breakfast. This decision helped me discover something that I have heard before, but have ignored. Protein keeps you full. I didn’t get as hungry as I usually do when lunch came around and I didn’t even eat all that much beef.
Lunch – macaroni n cheese and tuna. I didn’t have time for an egg or peas. My mother-in-law came and we went to the chiropractor while my father-in-law watched the kids. The good thing is that I left right after lunch so I didn’t have time to think about seconds.
Mid-afternoon – I wanted to eat a treat. Instead I decided to eat the food I was planning on eating instead. I ate two boiled eggs (planned for breakfast and lunch) and a tiny bowl of malt O’ Meal.
Dinner – Since I had had such a filling mid-afternoon snack I had a smaller dinner than normal of spaghetti. After dinner I decided to break a rule and have ice cream for our family night. I wanted it right away. I waited only about 5-10 minutes and I didn’t want it anymore. I often get cravings immediately after eating. I want treats to top off the meal. All it took was a little waiting and I don’t really want ice cream any more.
I’m happy. I was closer to what I had planned to eat than I have been for awhile.
Exercise didn’t happen. 1yo woke at 5:00 AM and didn’t take a very long nap. 3yo didn’t nap when he was supposed to since my f-i-l was watching him and he was too crabby to go to the gym when I planned to in the afternoon. That’s okay, I kind of made a new rule that I don’t have to exercise on the days I go to the chiropractor. My rationalization is that I feel so good and exercise might tighten up my muscles.
Yesterday my 3yo didn’t want to go to his kid class so he came the adult Sunday School Class. We were talking about Jesus’ commandment to love one another. 3yo raised his hand very high and very boldly. The teacher called on him and my son said so that everyone could hear, “Jesus is good, huh.” I couldn’t help but to smile.
My hubby now has his new machine in his machine shop. It is an exciting time. He already has one purchase order and two waiting. I don’t know how things will go, but I do know that hubby is so happy and excited and we have managed our money so that we will be okay if his new company can’t pay us for a few months.
Our cat has an eye infection or something and one of them went poo in the corner, so they will not be coming into the house for a while – if ever.
The key for me to not eat treats today was to promise myself that if I wanted them still I could plan them into my day tomorrow. The thing is that I don't even want them anymore. The other thing is that they were things that I don't even really like, I was just going to eat them just to eat something sweet. This way I'll save the fat and calories for something I really love and can enjoy.
Here is what happened. I gave my kids their normal pancakes due to a quick cleaning of the bedrooms of the house. While I was flipping pancakes, I cooked a bunch of ground beef that we got on a great sale at a natural food store. ($1.69/lb is a great price for normal ground beef, but for no hormone beef that is fantastic around here.) So I cook them up and put them in sandwich bags. Each bag holds about 1lb and then I freeze them and pull them out whenever I need a pound of ground beef.
I was also running late to go to my friends house for our weekly summer school so I ate the ground beef for breakfast. This decision helped me discover something that I have heard before, but have ignored. Protein keeps you full. I didn’t get as hungry as I usually do when lunch came around and I didn’t even eat all that much beef.
Lunch – macaroni n cheese and tuna. I didn’t have time for an egg or peas. My mother-in-law came and we went to the chiropractor while my father-in-law watched the kids. The good thing is that I left right after lunch so I didn’t have time to think about seconds.
Mid-afternoon – I wanted to eat a treat. Instead I decided to eat the food I was planning on eating instead. I ate two boiled eggs (planned for breakfast and lunch) and a tiny bowl of malt O’ Meal.
Dinner – Since I had had such a filling mid-afternoon snack I had a smaller dinner than normal of spaghetti. After dinner I decided to break a rule and have ice cream for our family night. I wanted it right away. I waited only about 5-10 minutes and I didn’t want it anymore. I often get cravings immediately after eating. I want treats to top off the meal. All it took was a little waiting and I don’t really want ice cream any more.
I’m happy. I was closer to what I had planned to eat than I have been for awhile.
Exercise didn’t happen. 1yo woke at 5:00 AM and didn’t take a very long nap. 3yo didn’t nap when he was supposed to since my f-i-l was watching him and he was too crabby to go to the gym when I planned to in the afternoon. That’s okay, I kind of made a new rule that I don’t have to exercise on the days I go to the chiropractor. My rationalization is that I feel so good and exercise might tighten up my muscles.
Yesterday my 3yo didn’t want to go to his kid class so he came the adult Sunday School Class. We were talking about Jesus’ commandment to love one another. 3yo raised his hand very high and very boldly. The teacher called on him and my son said so that everyone could hear, “Jesus is good, huh.” I couldn’t help but to smile.
My hubby now has his new machine in his machine shop. It is an exciting time. He already has one purchase order and two waiting. I don’t know how things will go, but I do know that hubby is so happy and excited and we have managed our money so that we will be okay if his new company can’t pay us for a few months.
Our cat has an eye infection or something and one of them went poo in the corner, so they will not be coming into the house for a while – if ever.
The key for me to not eat treats today was to promise myself that if I wanted them still I could plan them into my day tomorrow. The thing is that I don't even want them anymore. The other thing is that they were things that I don't even really like, I was just going to eat them just to eat something sweet. This way I'll save the fat and calories for something I really love and can enjoy.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Food Plan and Exercise
B- Boiled Egg
Malt O' Meal
Nectarine
L Tuna,
Egg,
Peas with a little Mac n cheese
lettue
Fruit
Before Dinner (this is so important) 4 baby carrots
D spaghetti
peas
carrots
Floating V8
1/2 hour yoga
30-60 minutes hill walking on treadmil
Malt O' Meal
Nectarine
L Tuna,
Egg,
Peas with a little Mac n cheese
lettue
Fruit
Before Dinner (this is so important) 4 baby carrots
D spaghetti
peas
carrots
Floating V8
1/2 hour yoga
30-60 minutes hill walking on treadmil
My Weekend
It’s working. I lost 1 pound this week. That is awesome and a total of 4 pound since I started two weeks ago. Let’s here it! Yippee! Last week I kind of thought it was a fluke. This week I didn’t eat as close to plan, but it was better than I used to eat and I still lost. This is very encouraging to me. I will continue to do what I’m doing and I will continue to work on improving the way I eat. I’m not on a diet. I’m trying to eat the way I believe God wants me to – not to excess. He doesn’t want me addicted to food. He wants me happy and he wants me to have control over my body so that my spirit can have room to grow.
We moved from Colorado 10 months ago. My best friend moved about 4 months after we did and ended up moving 1 ½ hours away. At the last minute Friday night we put our kids in the PJs and drove up to visit. We haven’t seen their new house yet so it was fun to be there. We stayed up late talking.
Saturday we got a babysitter for the kids and went to the temple. We then came home and decided to get another babysitter (my friend’s sister) and we took a trip down memory lane. My friend lives in the same town where my hubby and I met and went to college. It was so fun to see the places where we met and have so many memories. It felt like a time warp. I saw myself so long ago and it was as if I was seeing into the future of me and my hubby with our three boys and great life. Surreal. We then ate at our favorite restaurant in the entire town and enjoyed such great conversation and lots of laughs. We haven’t met a family in our new town that we click with so well. That is hard to find and I cherish their friendship. We then let the kids play outside in the sprinklers while we took naps. I didn’t get one in since 1yo didn’t think a nap was a good idea. We sat around and chatted and I so enjoyed not having anything on my to do list and not feeling guilty at all. Then we drove around campus with our kids and showed 6yo where he was born and ate at a great burger joint. We left that evening after fun was had by all.
Hubby has a big day tomorrow. He is getting a new machine for his machine shop that he is starting up. We are excited. Things are on their way.
Tomorrow's Focus:
Read sabotaging thoughts and tell myself NO CHOICE. It shouldn’t be hard, should it? If I really want something all I have to do is wait until the next day when I can write it into my plan.
We moved from Colorado 10 months ago. My best friend moved about 4 months after we did and ended up moving 1 ½ hours away. At the last minute Friday night we put our kids in the PJs and drove up to visit. We haven’t seen their new house yet so it was fun to be there. We stayed up late talking.
Saturday we got a babysitter for the kids and went to the temple. We then came home and decided to get another babysitter (my friend’s sister) and we took a trip down memory lane. My friend lives in the same town where my hubby and I met and went to college. It was so fun to see the places where we met and have so many memories. It felt like a time warp. I saw myself so long ago and it was as if I was seeing into the future of me and my hubby with our three boys and great life. Surreal. We then ate at our favorite restaurant in the entire town and enjoyed such great conversation and lots of laughs. We haven’t met a family in our new town that we click with so well. That is hard to find and I cherish their friendship. We then let the kids play outside in the sprinklers while we took naps. I didn’t get one in since 1yo didn’t think a nap was a good idea. We sat around and chatted and I so enjoyed not having anything on my to do list and not feeling guilty at all. Then we drove around campus with our kids and showed 6yo where he was born and ate at a great burger joint. We left that evening after fun was had by all.
Hubby has a big day tomorrow. He is getting a new machine for his machine shop that he is starting up. We are excited. Things are on their way.
Tomorrow's Focus:
Read sabotaging thoughts and tell myself NO CHOICE. It shouldn’t be hard, should it? If I really want something all I have to do is wait until the next day when I can write it into my plan.
Friday, June 22, 2007
Links
time4learning
I am a Mother
I don't know why this didn't work in the body of the otehr post. Weird. Or maybe I'm just unlearned when it comes to blogging. Probably both.
Enjoy.
I am a Mother
I don't know why this didn't work in the body of the otehr post. Weird. Or maybe I'm just unlearned when it comes to blogging. Probably both.
Enjoy.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
June 21, 2007
Today I woke up early (5:40 was the target but is more like 5:46). I got to the gym and had a great workout of cardio and weight in a class called Power Pump. The teacher is in her late 40s and looks better than I ever have. She is an inspiration.
I got home to all of my kids being awake so we started cleaning rooms.
Then I made pancakes (left-over batter from yesterday) and the kids played.
I ate my cereal, milk and banana. Now I am proud to announce that I did one of the things I do so often which is rationalize in my mind. I told myself that since the pancakes looked so good today that I could have that today and have my breakfast I was going to have today tomorrow and everything would come out even. I used some of the Beck Diet Solution Techniques and told myself that it wasn’t written and so I won’t eat it. I instead decided if I still wanted pancakes tomorrow then I could put that into my plan tonight as I write it down.
After breakfast 6yo played with the neighbors and 3 and 1yo just played around and watched TV while I showered. I don’t like them to be out when I’m not nearby so I had them stay in until after my shower. Then I got ready for a picnic in the park with other women at my church.
We all meet at a very crowded park and I don’t know if I will go again. It is stressful to me because it is so hard to keep track of three very busy and fast boys. I don’t know how the rest do it, but several other kids just sat by their moms while my kids were out fighting pirates or whatever they were doing.
I had a PB and Jelly sandwich and garden peas. Someone even commented on how good I was to be eating peas as she ate potato chips. Little did she know that the peas taste like candy.
Then it was quiet time and workbook time.
Somehow the nap time got away from me and I didn’t get much done. Sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t and I don’t stress about it. I read blogs for 10 minutes, tidied the house for 15 minutes took a power nap of 20 minutes and only got about 5 minutes of scripture study in. Then 1yo woke up and I tried to put together next week’s menu, but didn’t get too far. I’ll post it on the sidebar when I get it done.
We had an early dinner – chili dogs (I had chili on a potato with salad and apple sauce.)
6yo was supposed to go to a T-ball practice, but his stomach hurt him. He still wanted to go, but could barely stand straight. I had to talk him out of going and instead he just relaxed.
I volunteer for Cub Scouts and we had a meeting tonight. When I got home 3yo come in from the garage and the first words he utters are, “6yo (of coarse, he doesn’t say 6yo, but uses his name) cat just went poo on me.” So that describes how things are going. DH is out picking apricots from our tree and then he is going to clean the poo. Bless his heart!
Now I will put 1yo and 3yo in bed as 6yo has already fallen asleep on the couch.
Tomorrow is weigh in day. I'm nervous, but I think things will be good. If I loose then great, if not then I know where I need to change.
I got home to all of my kids being awake so we started cleaning rooms.
Then I made pancakes (left-over batter from yesterday) and the kids played.
I ate my cereal, milk and banana. Now I am proud to announce that I did one of the things I do so often which is rationalize in my mind. I told myself that since the pancakes looked so good today that I could have that today and have my breakfast I was going to have today tomorrow and everything would come out even. I used some of the Beck Diet Solution Techniques and told myself that it wasn’t written and so I won’t eat it. I instead decided if I still wanted pancakes tomorrow then I could put that into my plan tonight as I write it down.
After breakfast 6yo played with the neighbors and 3 and 1yo just played around and watched TV while I showered. I don’t like them to be out when I’m not nearby so I had them stay in until after my shower. Then I got ready for a picnic in the park with other women at my church.
We all meet at a very crowded park and I don’t know if I will go again. It is stressful to me because it is so hard to keep track of three very busy and fast boys. I don’t know how the rest do it, but several other kids just sat by their moms while my kids were out fighting pirates or whatever they were doing.
I had a PB and Jelly sandwich and garden peas. Someone even commented on how good I was to be eating peas as she ate potato chips. Little did she know that the peas taste like candy.
Then it was quiet time and workbook time.
Somehow the nap time got away from me and I didn’t get much done. Sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t and I don’t stress about it. I read blogs for 10 minutes, tidied the house for 15 minutes took a power nap of 20 minutes and only got about 5 minutes of scripture study in. Then 1yo woke up and I tried to put together next week’s menu, but didn’t get too far. I’ll post it on the sidebar when I get it done.
We had an early dinner – chili dogs (I had chili on a potato with salad and apple sauce.)
6yo was supposed to go to a T-ball practice, but his stomach hurt him. He still wanted to go, but could barely stand straight. I had to talk him out of going and instead he just relaxed.
I volunteer for Cub Scouts and we had a meeting tonight. When I got home 3yo come in from the garage and the first words he utters are, “6yo (of coarse, he doesn’t say 6yo, but uses his name) cat just went poo on me.” So that describes how things are going. DH is out picking apricots from our tree and then he is going to clean the poo. Bless his heart!
Now I will put 1yo and 3yo in bed as 6yo has already fallen asleep on the couch.
Tomorrow is weigh in day. I'm nervous, but I think things will be good. If I loose then great, if not then I know where I need to change.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
June 20th, 2007
I woke up this morning because my 1yo who is actually 20 months old showed up at my bed. I was surprised. He had crawled out of his crib and opened his door and walked quietly to me. All of these things I was unaware that he could do.
Shortly after 3yo woke and they both watched TV while I folded laundry. When I got done 6 yo was awake and we all put away the laundry and cleaned the boys’ rooms as well as mine.
Then I made pancakes (That’s their reward for working quickly and saying, “What can I do next.”). While each pancake cooked I cleaned up around the kitchen and did dishes. When the boys were done I let them have a short stint of television while I ate my breakfast ALONE.
We then got ready for a sprinkler party. Party is used loosely here as we just turned on the sprinklers and filled up the little pool and invited two friends over. That was fun and I think I got almost as wet at the kids. Next time I think I’ll wear my swimsuit.
Then I made whole wheat noodles with red sauce and cheese for both me and the boys. After lunch 1yo went down for a nap and the older boys did their workbooks. After workbooks 3yo went down for a nap and 6yo finished his workbooks while I did my 15 minute tidy that I try to do at nap time and every night.
6yo then ate a cookie with milk and played quietly (only when I reminded him) while I checked my blog, read other blogs (10 minutes) and read my scriptures.
Then he did his computer time. This is one of his favorite times of the day. We initially were going to buy different educational computer games, but then I came across a program that we have loved. It is called Time4Learning. I have been so pleased with this program. It is basically online school, but then it is followed by fun. We do 15 minutes of lessons and then 6yo gets to play great, safe games for as long as he wants. (I will write more about this later.)
He was so excited about one game that he went over to the neighbors and brought back five boys to watch him play. That lasted for quite awhile until they all migrated outside and then to the neighbors’ house. (I have three boys and our neighbors have 5 boys. There are lots of boys around here.)
In the meantime I read my book, I am a Mother while 6 yo was working on time4learning. Sometimes he needs a little help so I like to be close by. He is getting better and needs me less and less.
While he was playing his game I was able to clean both bathrooms, wash the sliding glass door (quite a feet), and shine the faucets (there is something about a shiny faucet even if the sink isn’t perfect), wash walls down that had who-knows-what on them, and wash other mirrors in the house. I made lasagna. (The oven heated our house right up. Any suggestions for no oven summer meals? I would love them.) And then I moved the sprinkler around the yard to several dry places.
We then had dinner and tried to find something that the whole family could watch. We ended on Deal of No Deal. (I wanted to watch So You Think You Can Dance since I used to have my own dance studio, but their costumes are too skimpy and the moves are too suggestive and not appropriate. This makes me so sad because I so miss seeing good dancing.)
There were the normal last spurts of energy from the kids, a few cries and accidents and last minute drinks and such and now 1yo and 6 yo are down and 3yo is waiting for me. We will play and then books and then to bed.
I didn’t stay true today, but I’m going to try a different route. Instead of sighting all my blips of the day I think I will concentrate on the good things I did. I think it would be safe for you to assume that there were blips, I’ll definitely tell you if there isn’t, but I’m not going to focus on them.
I was full after preparing dinner because one taste turned into a meal and the great thing was that I didn’t eat dinner like I would have in the past. I ate peas from our garden, tried the lasagna since hubby said it was the best I ever made. (Get this, I pureed a green pepper, asparagus and some peas into the sauce and no one was the wiser. Yes! I love that. I tend to do that with muffins too and it doesn’t go over so well. They have all gotten so they are a little hesitant to try them.)
Also I didn’t eat the ice cream I planned to tonight because 1yo kept following me to the downstairs freezer. He knew something was up. He knew I was carrying a bowl and spoon somewhere and he wanted to be there when I filled the bowl. He didn’t know what it was, but knew it must be good since I was trying to be alone. Well I didn’t want him to have some and I didn’t want to eat it with him begging. I wanted to enjoy the indulgence and that wasn’t going to happen so I didn’t eat.
I’m thinking about adding another incentive to eating the way I planned. If I go with the plan then I get to sleep an extra ½ hour. If I don’t then I need to wake ½ hour earlier and do yoga to try to focus my mind and body. What do you think? Do you think it will work?
I saw this on Yet Another Weight Watchers’ Blog and I liked it. She said, “you still have to eat less food to lose weight, and that it sucks sometimes. We need a leader who can agree with us that it sucks, but gently and firmly tell us we still are going to have to do it anyway.” I don’t know why that hit me, but it is true. There is no getting around it. We have to eat less food. I guess the question is how to get ourselves to want to give up eating more food.
Shortly after 3yo woke and they both watched TV while I folded laundry. When I got done 6 yo was awake and we all put away the laundry and cleaned the boys’ rooms as well as mine.
Then I made pancakes (That’s their reward for working quickly and saying, “What can I do next.”). While each pancake cooked I cleaned up around the kitchen and did dishes. When the boys were done I let them have a short stint of television while I ate my breakfast ALONE.
We then got ready for a sprinkler party. Party is used loosely here as we just turned on the sprinklers and filled up the little pool and invited two friends over. That was fun and I think I got almost as wet at the kids. Next time I think I’ll wear my swimsuit.
Then I made whole wheat noodles with red sauce and cheese for both me and the boys. After lunch 1yo went down for a nap and the older boys did their workbooks. After workbooks 3yo went down for a nap and 6yo finished his workbooks while I did my 15 minute tidy that I try to do at nap time and every night.
6yo then ate a cookie with milk and played quietly (only when I reminded him) while I checked my blog, read other blogs (10 minutes) and read my scriptures.
Then he did his computer time. This is one of his favorite times of the day. We initially were going to buy different educational computer games, but then I came across a program that we have loved. It is called Time4Learning. I have been so pleased with this program. It is basically online school, but then it is followed by fun. We do 15 minutes of lessons and then 6yo gets to play great, safe games for as long as he wants. (I will write more about this later.)
He was so excited about one game that he went over to the neighbors and brought back five boys to watch him play. That lasted for quite awhile until they all migrated outside and then to the neighbors’ house. (I have three boys and our neighbors have 5 boys. There are lots of boys around here.)
In the meantime I read my book, I am a Mother while 6 yo was working on time4learning. Sometimes he needs a little help so I like to be close by. He is getting better and needs me less and less.
While he was playing his game I was able to clean both bathrooms, wash the sliding glass door (quite a feet), and shine the faucets (there is something about a shiny faucet even if the sink isn’t perfect), wash walls down that had who-knows-what on them, and wash other mirrors in the house. I made lasagna. (The oven heated our house right up. Any suggestions for no oven summer meals? I would love them.) And then I moved the sprinkler around the yard to several dry places.
We then had dinner and tried to find something that the whole family could watch. We ended on Deal of No Deal. (I wanted to watch So You Think You Can Dance since I used to have my own dance studio, but their costumes are too skimpy and the moves are too suggestive and not appropriate. This makes me so sad because I so miss seeing good dancing.)
There were the normal last spurts of energy from the kids, a few cries and accidents and last minute drinks and such and now 1yo and 6 yo are down and 3yo is waiting for me. We will play and then books and then to bed.
I didn’t stay true today, but I’m going to try a different route. Instead of sighting all my blips of the day I think I will concentrate on the good things I did. I think it would be safe for you to assume that there were blips, I’ll definitely tell you if there isn’t, but I’m not going to focus on them.
I was full after preparing dinner because one taste turned into a meal and the great thing was that I didn’t eat dinner like I would have in the past. I ate peas from our garden, tried the lasagna since hubby said it was the best I ever made. (Get this, I pureed a green pepper, asparagus and some peas into the sauce and no one was the wiser. Yes! I love that. I tend to do that with muffins too and it doesn’t go over so well. They have all gotten so they are a little hesitant to try them.)
Also I didn’t eat the ice cream I planned to tonight because 1yo kept following me to the downstairs freezer. He knew something was up. He knew I was carrying a bowl and spoon somewhere and he wanted to be there when I filled the bowl. He didn’t know what it was, but knew it must be good since I was trying to be alone. Well I didn’t want him to have some and I didn’t want to eat it with him begging. I wanted to enjoy the indulgence and that wasn’t going to happen so I didn’t eat.
I’m thinking about adding another incentive to eating the way I planned. If I go with the plan then I get to sleep an extra ½ hour. If I don’t then I need to wake ½ hour earlier and do yoga to try to focus my mind and body. What do you think? Do you think it will work?
I saw this on Yet Another Weight Watchers’ Blog and I liked it. She said, “you still have to eat less food to lose weight, and that it sucks sometimes. We need a leader who can agree with us that it sucks, but gently and firmly tell us we still are going to have to do it anyway.” I don’t know why that hit me, but it is true. There is no getting around it. We have to eat less food. I guess the question is how to get ourselves to want to give up eating more food.
Fantastic
This was what I listened to when I was folding my laundry this morning. It was a great start to my day. It is a husband and wife talking about not being so hard on ourselves and the love God has for us- each of us. He knows our names. He knows our struggles and is not condemning us, but He is waiting to help us. Who couldn't use a little of that? If you are pressed for time, skip to the middle and listen until the end. It's a feel good talk.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Not Good
Today I was so proud of myself until just before dinner at about 4:45. I took one taste of a treat a friend brought and that was the beginning of the slippery slope. I've got to devote more time to diet and planning. I don't know how I will do this. I need to stay motivated and read more blogs, etc.
Monday, June 18, 2007
Oh Well and Summer School
Summer Schooling
I do not home school. In the summer I do summer school for my kids. It is simple and I think will give them an edge in school. (We’ll see since this is an experiment. My oldest is going into 1st grade.) Well, on Mondays I meet with a friend who has children about the same ages as my boys. We start with a Primary Children’s Song, then a prayer and a scripture. Then we are introduced to a theme of the week. Last week it was Flags (Flag Day) and Fathers. Then we learn a Spanish Word of the Day. After that we break up into groups and each mom reads a different part of a chapter book. After that the older kids do workbooks while the three year olds have a fun little pre-school lesson. Then the kids get to play board games or something fun.
On the other days, after lunch and after I put my 1yo down, my kids and I have a prayer and then we do workbooks. After workbooks I read a chapter book to them. Then they go to quiet time. During their quiet time (3yo sleeps and 6 yo plays alone) I tidy the house, read scriptures and get a few minutes of computer time.
Today I was supposed to work with my friend on our school, but her son wasn’t feeling well. Instead another friend and I took our kids to a supper fun park close by that has water squirting from the ground, a small wading pool, a bear cave, and a lighthouse and a maze to play in. It was so fun. We will do school with our friends tomorrow.
I have been working on saying, “Oh well.” This kind of makes me laugh because when I was in 8th grade my friends and I decided to skip school and hang out. Our favorite saying to ease our troubled consciences was, “Oh well.” I know for a fact that works well. In my situation right now it means, “I don’t like this, but I’m going to accept it and move on.” Back then it also helped me to not dwell on something and it meant, “I shouldn’t be doing this and I know that, but I pushed it to the back of my mind and moved on.” It just makes me smile to remember our saying and our little rebellious streak.
Today also focused on No Choice. It seemed to work well and I didn’t struggle much at all. I’m quite sure that was because it is the first day back on the horse, but I will definitely try again today. It also helped that 1yo slept his normal nap length. Lately he has been taking short naps and being clingy and grumpy so I wasn’t as tired as today mentally and I got a lot done.
I do not home school. In the summer I do summer school for my kids. It is simple and I think will give them an edge in school. (We’ll see since this is an experiment. My oldest is going into 1st grade.) Well, on Mondays I meet with a friend who has children about the same ages as my boys. We start with a Primary Children’s Song, then a prayer and a scripture. Then we are introduced to a theme of the week. Last week it was Flags (Flag Day) and Fathers. Then we learn a Spanish Word of the Day. After that we break up into groups and each mom reads a different part of a chapter book. After that the older kids do workbooks while the three year olds have a fun little pre-school lesson. Then the kids get to play board games or something fun.
On the other days, after lunch and after I put my 1yo down, my kids and I have a prayer and then we do workbooks. After workbooks I read a chapter book to them. Then they go to quiet time. During their quiet time (3yo sleeps and 6 yo plays alone) I tidy the house, read scriptures and get a few minutes of computer time.
Today I was supposed to work with my friend on our school, but her son wasn’t feeling well. Instead another friend and I took our kids to a supper fun park close by that has water squirting from the ground, a small wading pool, a bear cave, and a lighthouse and a maze to play in. It was so fun. We will do school with our friends tomorrow.
I have been working on saying, “Oh well.” This kind of makes me laugh because when I was in 8th grade my friends and I decided to skip school and hang out. Our favorite saying to ease our troubled consciences was, “Oh well.” I know for a fact that works well. In my situation right now it means, “I don’t like this, but I’m going to accept it and move on.” Back then it also helped me to not dwell on something and it meant, “I shouldn’t be doing this and I know that, but I pushed it to the back of my mind and moved on.” It just makes me smile to remember our saying and our little rebellious streak.
Today also focused on No Choice. It seemed to work well and I didn’t struggle much at all. I’m quite sure that was because it is the first day back on the horse, but I will definitely try again today. It also helped that 1yo slept his normal nap length. Lately he has been taking short naps and being clingy and grumpy so I wasn’t as tired as today mentally and I got a lot done.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Father's Day
This year for some reason I expected to be treated like a queen for a day on Mother’s Day – even from my kids. You know what I mean, not just a nice day of respect, but I wanted royal special treatment. I wanted perfection. I’m not usually like that and, of coarse, I was disappointed and grumpy.
I watched my husband this Father’s Day. He was happy. He let me pamper him, but he didn't mind if things weren't perfect. He didn’t sit around and wait for to be fanned off and grapes plopped in his mouth. He played with the kids and took time to clean-up too.
I asked myself, “Why is it that this year I totally wanted things to go just so and couldn’t relax?” After reflection, I think it is because on normal days I forget myself and get so depleted that I was looking for my family to fill that void on that particular day. I have not been taking care of my needs and my bucket is empty. (You’ve heard you have to fill up your bucket first before you can give to others, right?) My husband takes time for himself everyday, not a lot, but some. I need to do this too. I need to nurture myself so that I don’t depend on my dear family to do this task.
The reason I changed to just taking care of my family is because I know a woman who acts as though that is all you need to do in life. That may fill her bucket, but different personalities have different needs. I need social, creativity, intellectual learning opportunities and fun. So that is what I’m going to do.
1. I’m working on my body being healthier.
2. I wrote down a list of things that bring me joy.
3. I will plan on times that I can do the things that bring me joy.
4. I will in turn be a great mom that is not needy and expecting her family to fill her bucket. This way I can fill theirs because mine is full.
Make sense? I don’t have time to reread this to see if it does so there are my thoughts tonight.
I watched my husband this Father’s Day. He was happy. He let me pamper him, but he didn't mind if things weren't perfect. He didn’t sit around and wait for to be fanned off and grapes plopped in his mouth. He played with the kids and took time to clean-up too.
I asked myself, “Why is it that this year I totally wanted things to go just so and couldn’t relax?” After reflection, I think it is because on normal days I forget myself and get so depleted that I was looking for my family to fill that void on that particular day. I have not been taking care of my needs and my bucket is empty. (You’ve heard you have to fill up your bucket first before you can give to others, right?) My husband takes time for himself everyday, not a lot, but some. I need to do this too. I need to nurture myself so that I don’t depend on my dear family to do this task.
The reason I changed to just taking care of my family is because I know a woman who acts as though that is all you need to do in life. That may fill her bucket, but different personalities have different needs. I need social, creativity, intellectual learning opportunities and fun. So that is what I’m going to do.
1. I’m working on my body being healthier.
2. I wrote down a list of things that bring me joy.
3. I will plan on times that I can do the things that bring me joy.
4. I will in turn be a great mom that is not needy and expecting her family to fill her bucket. This way I can fill theirs because mine is full.
Make sense? I don’t have time to reread this to see if it does so there are my thoughts tonight.
The Process of Getting Back on the Horse
Here is what happened. I weighed myself last Friday. There are some women that I know that are also trying to loose weight so we all meet on Fridays to weigh and chat. I lost three pounds! For some reason I thought I’d loose more. Looking back I don’t know why I thought that. I know one – two pounds a week is great especially since it had only been four full days of watching what I eat (I prefer to say watching what I eat instead of diet because diet seems like a temporary thing that you do for awhile and then stop. I plan to always be aware of what I eat – just like most thin people are.)
Initially I didn’t even give myself credit for the three pounds and gave some excuse as though I didn’t really lose them. (Isn’t it amazing how the mind can talk you into certain things that don’t really make sense?) So when I got home I decided I didn’t want to eat what I was supposed to and I ate “just a little taste” of something and then that turned into a big taste. Then since I had blown that I decided to eat a favorite dessert while I was in the mode of cheating. You know how it goes from there. Unfortunately the last three days I haven’t been true to the plan. It is hard to get back on once you get off – I need to remember that one.
It is strange I am starting to wonder if it’s really worth it.
Dr. Beck in the Beck Diet Solution knows that we would be feeling this and has a response. I will go back and read my list of why I’m doing this and I will remind myself that it is hard.
I have to thank Emily for her comment. You are right it is hard. If it wasn’t we would have done it by now. Hard has never hindered me from doing what I really have wanted to do in life. I will not let it stop me here. I just need to remember that I want to. I need to remember how great it feels to eat right and to normal fullness – energy! (I think merely over eating makes me tired – even if I eat the same kind of food.)
I read the section about weighing yourself and getting back on track and sabotaging thoughts today. I will reread those again and will try to get them in my brain and try to get them to be automatic responses.
Just writing this has helped me feel stronger and has helped me feel my desire to be healthy again.
I’m pumped. Here we go. No more excuses. If it is not written down then it doesn’t go in the mouth. If I want to change one of my diet rules, (This is a classic I try to pull on myself when I really want a snack.) then it must be done when I’m making my menu.
Specific things I need to do.
1. Eat alone – no kids around. (Except at dinner time.)
2. Eat my vegetables and fruit at lunch first before I eat my main item. This is because after I eat my main item I often don’t feel full and want to eat more. If I eat the fruit and vegetable first then I will be more full when I finish the rest and more able to turn my focus away from the food.
3. Get to bed early so I can get up early for my exercise on Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday.
4. Eat Slowly. (I’ve actually gotten more used to eating sitting down so that it kind of feels weird eating standing up.)
5. MUST write food down the night before. Take the time.
Initially I didn’t even give myself credit for the three pounds and gave some excuse as though I didn’t really lose them. (Isn’t it amazing how the mind can talk you into certain things that don’t really make sense?) So when I got home I decided I didn’t want to eat what I was supposed to and I ate “just a little taste” of something and then that turned into a big taste. Then since I had blown that I decided to eat a favorite dessert while I was in the mode of cheating. You know how it goes from there. Unfortunately the last three days I haven’t been true to the plan. It is hard to get back on once you get off – I need to remember that one.
It is strange I am starting to wonder if it’s really worth it.
Dr. Beck in the Beck Diet Solution knows that we would be feeling this and has a response. I will go back and read my list of why I’m doing this and I will remind myself that it is hard.
I have to thank Emily for her comment. You are right it is hard. If it wasn’t we would have done it by now. Hard has never hindered me from doing what I really have wanted to do in life. I will not let it stop me here. I just need to remember that I want to. I need to remember how great it feels to eat right and to normal fullness – energy! (I think merely over eating makes me tired – even if I eat the same kind of food.)
I read the section about weighing yourself and getting back on track and sabotaging thoughts today. I will reread those again and will try to get them in my brain and try to get them to be automatic responses.
Just writing this has helped me feel stronger and has helped me feel my desire to be healthy again.
I’m pumped. Here we go. No more excuses. If it is not written down then it doesn’t go in the mouth. If I want to change one of my diet rules, (This is a classic I try to pull on myself when I really want a snack.) then it must be done when I’m making my menu.
Specific things I need to do.
1. Eat alone – no kids around. (Except at dinner time.)
2. Eat my vegetables and fruit at lunch first before I eat my main item. This is because after I eat my main item I often don’t feel full and want to eat more. If I eat the fruit and vegetable first then I will be more full when I finish the rest and more able to turn my focus away from the food.
3. Get to bed early so I can get up early for my exercise on Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday.
4. Eat Slowly. (I’ve actually gotten more used to eating sitting down so that it kind of feels weird eating standing up.)
5. MUST write food down the night before. Take the time.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Getting Back on Track
Today I didn't really read what I'm supposed to work on. I didn't write a food plan either. I didn't eat all that great either, but here is the good part. I ate way less than I would have two weeks ago. That is progress. It wasn't as good as I have been doing, but it also wasn't as bad. I have written out what I will eat already for tomorrow and I'll get right back on the horse.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Day 19 - Stop Fooling Yourself
I tried to fool myself today and I succeeded. I knew what I was doing, but I did it anyway. I gave all the usual excuses like I'm tired, it's a special day,it's a hard day, I've already eatien some, I've already blown it for today, etc.
Not a good day food and otherwise. :(
I'll get over it. I'll pick myself up.
Not a good day food and otherwise. :(
I'll get over it. I'll pick myself up.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Day 18 – Change Your Definition of Full
I’m reading and following a book called the Beck Diet Solution by Judith Beck. I’m also following a plan of eating smaller portions and more fruit and vegetables.
I didn't make it to my pump class this morning because one of my kiddos had a very hard time settling down last night. So, first thing in the morning I checked Fit TV and found an exercise program that is similar to my pump class. I will try it this afternoon after I finish my computer time and then read my scriptures. I need to make dinner in there somewhere too. Maybe I'll do that first. Just got back. We will be having salmon (I'm trying a new recipe) and homemade yellow rice (also new recipes from a friend) I will also look around for two veges to add. Probably a salad and green beans. I forgot to add the rice to my food plan so I won't eat it today. Hopefully there will be more for me to warm-up tomorrow. The old me would have said, "But it is better freshly cooked and not reheated." The new me is saying, "I will try it tomorrow and if it is good then I'll make more some other day. If it's not very good then good for me! That means I stayed with the plan and didn't miss out on anything."
Most of the diet thoughts below come from that book, not me. I’m just trying to internalize them.
If you can’t go for a brisk walk after you eat then you are full. I know that I seemed to think if you can go for a brisk walk after dinner then you didn’t eat enough. :) So the task to adopt today is to see if you could go for a walk after dinner. If you can’t go for a walk then remind yourself that that is not normal.
Here are some quotes that explain why I eat to over fullness:
1. I want to prolong the eating experience – I like the taste of the food
2. I have a hard time taking my attention away from eating – this is big. Once I start I want to keep going. If I never start it is easier for me to stay away, even if I’m hungry.
3. I link the sensation of over fullness with feeling safe or protected from discomfort. I have had to remind myself that the feeling of having lots of food in my tummy does not change my circumstances. I am not more protected just because I have food as a stress release. There are other solutions that are actually more effective.
Here are some positive affirmations to stop becoming overfull.
1. I don’t need to prolong the eating experience. I enjoyed it the first time and will eat more later.
2. When I’m done eating I immediately do something to take my focus away from food.
3. I don’t need to have food in my tummy in order to feel safe and protected. Food is not a solution.
Break the Connection
I need to concentrate on realizing what natural fullness is.
I need to give myself credit for not eating more.
I need to tell myself “I really want to eat more, but I’m normally full. I want to be thinner, so I’m going to stop eating now.
If I feel nervous, I can remind myself that it’s okay to feel hunger.
Dr. Beck says, “If you finish what’s on you plate and feel disappointed that you can’t eat more, remind yourself that you’ll be able to eat again soon.” I need to remind myself that it’s okay. Hunger will go and I can wait until my next meal.
It is 4 PM. Usually I have a hard time in the afternoon. Not today. I think it is because I allowed myself to eat a very rich dessert bar (it was in my plan) and that fat has kept me full. In my plan I even skimped on lunch. I usually have a salad, some fruit, and a main dish. Today I just had salad and fruit. I'm also really motivated to loose weight because a friend complimented me on my choice of clothes and how I look. It made me feel great and made me want to be healthy and thin and to go shopping.
I didn't make it to my pump class this morning because one of my kiddos had a very hard time settling down last night. So, first thing in the morning I checked Fit TV and found an exercise program that is similar to my pump class. I will try it this afternoon after I finish my computer time and then read my scriptures. I need to make dinner in there somewhere too. Maybe I'll do that first. Just got back. We will be having salmon (I'm trying a new recipe) and homemade yellow rice (also new recipes from a friend) I will also look around for two veges to add. Probably a salad and green beans. I forgot to add the rice to my food plan so I won't eat it today. Hopefully there will be more for me to warm-up tomorrow. The old me would have said, "But it is better freshly cooked and not reheated." The new me is saying, "I will try it tomorrow and if it is good then I'll make more some other day. If it's not very good then good for me! That means I stayed with the plan and didn't miss out on anything."
Most of the diet thoughts below come from that book, not me. I’m just trying to internalize them.
If you can’t go for a brisk walk after you eat then you are full. I know that I seemed to think if you can go for a brisk walk after dinner then you didn’t eat enough. :) So the task to adopt today is to see if you could go for a walk after dinner. If you can’t go for a walk then remind yourself that that is not normal.
Here are some quotes that explain why I eat to over fullness:
1. I want to prolong the eating experience – I like the taste of the food
2. I have a hard time taking my attention away from eating – this is big. Once I start I want to keep going. If I never start it is easier for me to stay away, even if I’m hungry.
3. I link the sensation of over fullness with feeling safe or protected from discomfort. I have had to remind myself that the feeling of having lots of food in my tummy does not change my circumstances. I am not more protected just because I have food as a stress release. There are other solutions that are actually more effective.
Here are some positive affirmations to stop becoming overfull.
1. I don’t need to prolong the eating experience. I enjoyed it the first time and will eat more later.
2. When I’m done eating I immediately do something to take my focus away from food.
3. I don’t need to have food in my tummy in order to feel safe and protected. Food is not a solution.
Break the Connection
I need to concentrate on realizing what natural fullness is.
I need to give myself credit for not eating more.
I need to tell myself “I really want to eat more, but I’m normally full. I want to be thinner, so I’m going to stop eating now.
If I feel nervous, I can remind myself that it’s okay to feel hunger.
Dr. Beck says, “If you finish what’s on you plate and feel disappointed that you can’t eat more, remind yourself that you’ll be able to eat again soon.” I need to remind myself that it’s okay. Hunger will go and I can wait until my next meal.
It is 4 PM. Usually I have a hard time in the afternoon. Not today. I think it is because I allowed myself to eat a very rich dessert bar (it was in my plan) and that fat has kept me full. In my plan I even skimped on lunch. I usually have a salad, some fruit, and a main dish. Today I just had salad and fruit. I'm also really motivated to loose weight because a friend complimented me on my choice of clothes and how I look. It made me feel great and made me want to be healthy and thin and to go shopping.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Day 17
I don’t have a lot of time today because we got another new cat and the kids are very excited about the entire thing. They are having a hard time going to sleep and I need to get them settled so I can wake up at 5:40 to be ready for my pump class.
Our internet was down earlier so I didn’t get to check my blog until later than usual. I will have to get to all that tomorrow.
I was supposed to leave a portion on my plate. It was calling to me to eat it, but I held strong. I really really really wanted to keep eating at the end of dinner. I sipped on V8 juice and that seemed to do the trick. It gave my mind enough time to realize that I didn’t need it. I was fine and I’m still quite comfortably full right now. Imagine if I had eaten more; I would be stuffed. I’m so happy that I didn’t break the plan.
As usual, I also had a struggle in the afternoon. I think that is always a hard time for me because I’m tired and I don’t want to do the cleaning or to do list that I really should be doing while the kids sleep. In the recent past food has been a good procrastination tool. So instead of snacking, I just kind of wandered around doing not much of anything, but I didn’t eat. I can work on my productivity at a different time. Right now I will work on me and reaching my goal of being healthy.
Our internet was down earlier so I didn’t get to check my blog until later than usual. I will have to get to all that tomorrow.
I was supposed to leave a portion on my plate. It was calling to me to eat it, but I held strong. I really really really wanted to keep eating at the end of dinner. I sipped on V8 juice and that seemed to do the trick. It gave my mind enough time to realize that I didn’t need it. I was fine and I’m still quite comfortably full right now. Imagine if I had eaten more; I would be stuffed. I’m so happy that I didn’t break the plan.
As usual, I also had a struggle in the afternoon. I think that is always a hard time for me because I’m tired and I don’t want to do the cleaning or to do list that I really should be doing while the kids sleep. In the recent past food has been a good procrastination tool. So instead of snacking, I just kind of wandered around doing not much of anything, but I didn’t eat. I can work on my productivity at a different time. Right now I will work on me and reaching my goal of being healthy.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Day 17 - NO CHOICE
The NO CHOICE is wonderful to me and frees up my mind and energy during the day. I used to eat to get energy (of coarse it was always after the internal fight about if I should eat or not). I have noticed so much more energy and I think it has happened so soon because my mental mind is free. Writing all that I eat and stilcking to it is freeing to me. (Kind of like following God. It may seem restrictive, but in the end you are not chained by addictions or bad habits, etc.) If I really wanted to eat something one day, then I can plan for it the next day – in moderation. When I plan it I find there is no impulse eating of binge eating.
I do summer school with my kids ages 6, 3, and 1 in the summer. One day a week I combine with a friend and we do it together and let the kids play a game at the end. The kids love it. Our snack today was watermelon and it smelled so good and looked so good. I was offered and for a second I thought, “It’s just watermelon. That is good for you. It won’t hurt.” But immediately the voice said, “But it’s not on your plan. Even though it’s not good for you, you didn’t plan to eat it and it won’t hurt you to not eat it. If you eat it it will be easier to eat something else off your plan next time.” I’m so proud of myself. I didn’t eat it and I stuck with my plan and I strenthened my resistance muscle. Yay me!!!!!
PS I’ve been so happy these last couple of days because I know I’m doing what is good for my body and I feel in control! I need to remember feeling in control taste better than a spur of the moment treat, besides there is a time and a place and I can have the treat later and still feel good. Win – Win.
Spencer W. Kimball said, “The highest achievement of spirituality comes as we conquer the flesh.” I feel I’m becoming more spiritually minded as I go on the Beck Diet Solution Journey. As a result I’ve felt a feeling of accomplishment, control and happiness which are all gifts of the Holy Spirit. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. - Galatians 5:22-23
Well things started out so well, but at dinner I didn’t eat my before dinner carrots – which I think really helps. I took a few extra bites.
Solution: Eat carrots before dinner.
Reminder: I still want to eat, but it’s okay. In a few minutes when my mind catches up with my brain then I will be okay.
Also after dinner I really wanted this great ice cream that we have. I said to my hubby (a.k.a. coach) “I really want some ice cream.” He said, “Then do it. You wrote it in the plan.” I said, “I already did it.” He said, “Oh, then don’t.” Somehow when he put it all that simply it worked. If it’s in your plan then do it, if it’s not then don’t do it. NO CHOICE.
I also had some hard things come up that usually cause me to eat. I didn't give in!!! I was very tired from an early morning workout. So mid-afternoon on I was tempted to eat a little something, anything, to try to boost my energy. Response: It won't really boost my energy for long and I'll be right back where I started, but more worn out because I will be sad that I ate what I did. I also got a headache and wanted to eat. This stems from when I was a kid and used to get headaches a lot and the Dr. said it was because I needed to eat more. Since then it has been my defense even though it doesn't always work - usually doesn't.
Menu for Tomorrow
B-cereal
Banana
Milk
L ½ egg sandwich
Salad (if have or carrots)
Apple
Before D. 4 carrots
D Tatortot casserole (this is the item I will dish extra just so I can leave some on my plate. This will be hard for me since this casserole is something I usually overeat. I will section off 1/3 of what I was going to eat. Once it is decided – NO CHOICE. I will use the behavioral technique of getting up and leaving if it becomes too much. This one really makes me nervous because it is hard enough to stop when I have to put more on my plate, but to stop when it is already there will be so tempting.)
Green beans if we have them or corn
Dessert Apple
Floating Beverage V8 (this means I can eat this anytime throughout the day, if I want)
I have to admit I’m curious how many calories or points my plan is. Maybe one of these days I’ll count – might be fun.
I do summer school with my kids ages 6, 3, and 1 in the summer. One day a week I combine with a friend and we do it together and let the kids play a game at the end. The kids love it. Our snack today was watermelon and it smelled so good and looked so good. I was offered and for a second I thought, “It’s just watermelon. That is good for you. It won’t hurt.” But immediately the voice said, “But it’s not on your plan. Even though it’s not good for you, you didn’t plan to eat it and it won’t hurt you to not eat it. If you eat it it will be easier to eat something else off your plan next time.” I’m so proud of myself. I didn’t eat it and I stuck with my plan and I strenthened my resistance muscle. Yay me!!!!!
PS I’ve been so happy these last couple of days because I know I’m doing what is good for my body and I feel in control! I need to remember feeling in control taste better than a spur of the moment treat, besides there is a time and a place and I can have the treat later and still feel good. Win – Win.
Spencer W. Kimball said, “The highest achievement of spirituality comes as we conquer the flesh.” I feel I’m becoming more spiritually minded as I go on the Beck Diet Solution Journey. As a result I’ve felt a feeling of accomplishment, control and happiness which are all gifts of the Holy Spirit. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. - Galatians 5:22-23
Well things started out so well, but at dinner I didn’t eat my before dinner carrots – which I think really helps. I took a few extra bites.
Solution: Eat carrots before dinner.
Reminder: I still want to eat, but it’s okay. In a few minutes when my mind catches up with my brain then I will be okay.
Also after dinner I really wanted this great ice cream that we have. I said to my hubby (a.k.a. coach) “I really want some ice cream.” He said, “Then do it. You wrote it in the plan.” I said, “I already did it.” He said, “Oh, then don’t.” Somehow when he put it all that simply it worked. If it’s in your plan then do it, if it’s not then don’t do it. NO CHOICE.
I also had some hard things come up that usually cause me to eat. I didn't give in!!! I was very tired from an early morning workout. So mid-afternoon on I was tempted to eat a little something, anything, to try to boost my energy. Response: It won't really boost my energy for long and I'll be right back where I started, but more worn out because I will be sad that I ate what I did. I also got a headache and wanted to eat. This stems from when I was a kid and used to get headaches a lot and the Dr. said it was because I needed to eat more. Since then it has been my defense even though it doesn't always work - usually doesn't.
Menu for Tomorrow
B-cereal
Banana
Milk
L ½ egg sandwich
Salad (if have or carrots)
Apple
Before D. 4 carrots
D Tatortot casserole (this is the item I will dish extra just so I can leave some on my plate. This will be hard for me since this casserole is something I usually overeat. I will section off 1/3 of what I was going to eat. Once it is decided – NO CHOICE. I will use the behavioral technique of getting up and leaving if it becomes too much. This one really makes me nervous because it is hard enough to stop when I have to put more on my plate, but to stop when it is already there will be so tempting.)
Green beans if we have them or corn
Dessert Apple
Floating Beverage V8 (this means I can eat this anytime throughout the day, if I want)
I have to admit I’m curious how many calories or points my plan is. Maybe one of these days I’ll count – might be fun.
Monday, June 11, 2007
Don't Dwell on the Problems - Look to God
When I read this scripture today it really put things into perspective.
“Awake, my soul! No longer droop in sin. Rejoice, O my heart, and give place no more for the enemy of my soul. Do not anger again because of mine enemies. Do not slacken my strength because of mine afflictions. Rejoice, O my heart, and cry unto the Lord, and say: O Lord, I will praise thee forever; year, my soul will rejoice in thiee, my God and the rock of my salvation.” 2 Nephi 4:28-30
I know that there have been times in my life that I have been down and usually the reason is because I am looking down at all the roadblocks in my life and not up to God. This was encouraging to me that a man as great as Nephi had a similar thing happen to him. He had had so many spiritual experiences and knew the goodness of God and yet sorrowed in his affliction and sin. Then all of a sudden it is as though things were brought into perspective to him and he wrote the scripture up above. He seemed to get a game plan to help him bet past his sin and to focus on God. (To get the full story click here.
Sometimes I look too closely at the things of this world that don’t really matter. When I really think about it, everything is okay. As long as I’m living the way I should be the large matters that consume my mind become little things not worth thinking about.
“Awake, my soul! No longer droop in sin. Rejoice, O my heart, and give place no more for the enemy of my soul. Do not anger again because of mine enemies. Do not slacken my strength because of mine afflictions. Rejoice, O my heart, and cry unto the Lord, and say: O Lord, I will praise thee forever; year, my soul will rejoice in thiee, my God and the rock of my salvation.” 2 Nephi 4:28-30
I know that there have been times in my life that I have been down and usually the reason is because I am looking down at all the roadblocks in my life and not up to God. This was encouraging to me that a man as great as Nephi had a similar thing happen to him. He had had so many spiritual experiences and knew the goodness of God and yet sorrowed in his affliction and sin. Then all of a sudden it is as though things were brought into perspective to him and he wrote the scripture up above. He seemed to get a game plan to help him bet past his sin and to focus on God. (To get the full story click here.
Sometimes I look too closely at the things of this world that don’t really matter. When I really think about it, everything is okay. As long as I’m living the way I should be the large matters that consume my mind become little things not worth thinking about.
Day 15
Menu for Tomorrow
Breakfast – 10 chips
½ c. slasa
String cheese (I know it is weird, but I really wanted that today and I’m so proud that I didn’t give in because it wasn’t on my plan.)
Lunch – Ham Sandwich with tomato, spinach, and a little ranch
Two Small Scoops of Ice Cream (When Kids are in Quiet Time)
Before Dinner 4 Baby Carrots (this worked really well today to make the hunger a little easier to handle.)
Dinner Tatortot Casserole
Spinach salad (can you tell I’m trying to get rid of garden spinach?)
Green Beans
Dessert Apple (Didn’t even need my apple today even when everyone was eating ice cream. It wasn’t on the plan so I didn’t succumb.
I stayed away from pancakes which I love and my kids ate and a whole bunch of other temptations that I left upstairs. I can’t go get it right now because I’m timing myself and must be done in two minutes. Oh I remember one, I ate by myself for breakfast and lunch and it was wonderful. It was actually a great break from the day. I look forward to doing it again tomorrow.
It was hard to stay on task, but I’m so proud of myself for doing so. Talk about self-esteem lifter.
Breakfast – 10 chips
½ c. slasa
String cheese (I know it is weird, but I really wanted that today and I’m so proud that I didn’t give in because it wasn’t on my plan.)
Lunch – Ham Sandwich with tomato, spinach, and a little ranch
Two Small Scoops of Ice Cream (When Kids are in Quiet Time)
Before Dinner 4 Baby Carrots (this worked really well today to make the hunger a little easier to handle.)
Dinner Tatortot Casserole
Spinach salad (can you tell I’m trying to get rid of garden spinach?)
Green Beans
Dessert Apple (Didn’t even need my apple today even when everyone was eating ice cream. It wasn’t on the plan so I didn’t succumb.
I stayed away from pancakes which I love and my kids ate and a whole bunch of other temptations that I left upstairs. I can’t go get it right now because I’m timing myself and must be done in two minutes. Oh I remember one, I ate by myself for breakfast and lunch and it was wonderful. It was actually a great break from the day. I look forward to doing it again tomorrow.
It was hard to stay on task, but I’m so proud of myself for doing so. Talk about self-esteem lifter.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Days 11-14
I have decided to put these days all together so that I will have the tools I need to start dieting. I have found myself eating lots of goodies and not being able to work on stopping cravings because I tell myself I can eat what I want right now because I’m not on a diet.
Today I’ve been differentiating between hunger, desire and cravings. I realized that when I eat a meal I’m really not that hungry – about a 5-7 on the hunger scale. I also noticed that when I finish the allotted amount of food that I’m pretty comfortable, about a 2. The thing is that I eat until I’m a 0 or -1. I keep eating until I’m full. Then I eat some more. Once I start eating I tend to keep eating – doesn’t this apply to one of the laws of physics? So 20 Minutes after I’m done with my meal I’m stuffed.
Here is what I learned from this activity today.
1. I’m allotting myself enough food. I’m still a tad hungry when I finish, but if I’d just wait I’d be comfortable.
2. I eat too much each meal. In my book I should be a bit hungrier before each meal.
3. If I would eat slowly without distractions then I would have more emotional satisfaction from my meal.
Solution – Eat my food and give no choice to eating more. Use techniques to stop eating from the craving section because that is what I’m feeling, not hunger. Even if I was feeling hunger, I feel I a lot enough food that my body should get used to the smaller amounts. I need to remember that I need to eat separate from my children – either before or after. Dinner is different because hubby will be the referee.
Some quotes from BDS that I liked are below.
Thought: I want to eat more.
Response: Okay, I’ve finished the food I planned to eat for this meal, and I’m still hungry…But that’s okay. It’s okay to be hungry. It is not an emergency. Walk away and find something else to do. (The computer or calling a friend or going outside work well for me)
Response: Okay I’m hungry no big deal, I’m going to eat again. Here’s a chance to strengthen my resistance muscle.
Hunger is never an emergency.
Most people don’t eat every time they’re hungry; they wait until their next meal. I need to learn that skill, too.
I will do day 12 later as I fast anyway each month.
Day 13
The more you wait out a craving the less intense and frequent they become.
You will find yourself saying. I’m feeling a craving, but I know I can tolerate it and it’ll go away…It’s great that I’m tolerating it! Instead of feeling deprived, you’ll feel good – proud, strong, confident, in control.
Ways to Get Rid of Cravings are
Mindset Techniques:
1. it’s a craving and it will go away.
2. Think about how giving in will undermine your confidence and how standing strong will strengthen you.
3. NO CHOICE! Nothing bad will happen if you withstand the craving, but you will be so proud of yourself in a few minutes.
4. Imagine the aftermath: Go ahead and think about eating the food you’re craving. Imagine it in your mouth. Now visualize when you feel weak after and out of control. Se yourself feeling upset, giving up, continuing to eat more and mores, feeling worse and worse. You feel heavier in your body and spirit. Now which seems better: eating or not eating?
Behavioral Techniques
1. Distance yourself from the food
2. Take a drink.
3. Relax (yoga)
4. Distract yourself – computer, outside or call someone on the phone, plan the next day, look at a cook book and pick a new recipe to try
Thought: I know myself. The next time I have a craving I won’t want to control myself.
Response: That’s probably true. But I can keep reminding myself that I don’t want to be at the mercy of my craving forever. To get rid of them, I’m always going to have to do one of the two things: either give in and eat and never lose the weight I want or use the anti-craving techniques so often that I just won’t have many cravings anymore. Once I find out these techniques really work, I’ll be able to wait out my craving so much more easily.
My plan for food tomorrow is
Breakfast: 1 bowl of cereal
1 banana
Milk
Lunch Spinach Salad
Watermelon
Snack PB and Jelly Sandwich
Before Dinner Four baby carrots
Dinner Grilled Salmon
Lots of Peas
Dessert Apple
I will do 30-60 minutes of yoga. (This depends on how long my kids nap.)
I need to remember to tolerate hunger and cravings and know that I can withstand them.
Breakfast Options
Cereal toast oatmeal malt o’meal
Milk 2 eggs milk milk
Banana canned fruit canned fruit canned fruit
Lunch Options
Salad
Fruit
And
Macaroni and cheese, or
Pasta with red sauce or
PB and Jelly Sandwich or
Egg Sandwich or
Ham Sandwich or
Chips and salsa (quesadilla for kids) or
Leftovers.
I am doing a great job following this book and planning. I will give myself no choice tomorrow and I will distract myself if I have cravings.
I think like a thin person.
Here is my Night Routine
Brush Teeth etc.
15 minute Tidy
Laundry
Write Tomorrow’s Meal Plan
Evaluate Today and Record Thoughts
Prayer
Read Next Day’s Plan
Check on 3yo to make sure he’s asleep
Tomorrow is the day I take control and eat like a thin person and become a thin person.
Today I’ve been differentiating between hunger, desire and cravings. I realized that when I eat a meal I’m really not that hungry – about a 5-7 on the hunger scale. I also noticed that when I finish the allotted amount of food that I’m pretty comfortable, about a 2. The thing is that I eat until I’m a 0 or -1. I keep eating until I’m full. Then I eat some more. Once I start eating I tend to keep eating – doesn’t this apply to one of the laws of physics? So 20 Minutes after I’m done with my meal I’m stuffed.
Here is what I learned from this activity today.
1. I’m allotting myself enough food. I’m still a tad hungry when I finish, but if I’d just wait I’d be comfortable.
2. I eat too much each meal. In my book I should be a bit hungrier before each meal.
3. If I would eat slowly without distractions then I would have more emotional satisfaction from my meal.
Solution – Eat my food and give no choice to eating more. Use techniques to stop eating from the craving section because that is what I’m feeling, not hunger. Even if I was feeling hunger, I feel I a lot enough food that my body should get used to the smaller amounts. I need to remember that I need to eat separate from my children – either before or after. Dinner is different because hubby will be the referee.
Some quotes from BDS that I liked are below.
Thought: I want to eat more.
Response: Okay, I’ve finished the food I planned to eat for this meal, and I’m still hungry…But that’s okay. It’s okay to be hungry. It is not an emergency. Walk away and find something else to do. (The computer or calling a friend or going outside work well for me)
Response: Okay I’m hungry no big deal, I’m going to eat again. Here’s a chance to strengthen my resistance muscle.
Hunger is never an emergency.
Most people don’t eat every time they’re hungry; they wait until their next meal. I need to learn that skill, too.
I will do day 12 later as I fast anyway each month.
Day 13
The more you wait out a craving the less intense and frequent they become.
You will find yourself saying. I’m feeling a craving, but I know I can tolerate it and it’ll go away…It’s great that I’m tolerating it! Instead of feeling deprived, you’ll feel good – proud, strong, confident, in control.
Ways to Get Rid of Cravings are
Mindset Techniques:
1. it’s a craving and it will go away.
2. Think about how giving in will undermine your confidence and how standing strong will strengthen you.
3. NO CHOICE! Nothing bad will happen if you withstand the craving, but you will be so proud of yourself in a few minutes.
4. Imagine the aftermath: Go ahead and think about eating the food you’re craving. Imagine it in your mouth. Now visualize when you feel weak after and out of control. Se yourself feeling upset, giving up, continuing to eat more and mores, feeling worse and worse. You feel heavier in your body and spirit. Now which seems better: eating or not eating?
Behavioral Techniques
1. Distance yourself from the food
2. Take a drink.
3. Relax (yoga)
4. Distract yourself – computer, outside or call someone on the phone, plan the next day, look at a cook book and pick a new recipe to try
Thought: I know myself. The next time I have a craving I won’t want to control myself.
Response: That’s probably true. But I can keep reminding myself that I don’t want to be at the mercy of my craving forever. To get rid of them, I’m always going to have to do one of the two things: either give in and eat and never lose the weight I want or use the anti-craving techniques so often that I just won’t have many cravings anymore. Once I find out these techniques really work, I’ll be able to wait out my craving so much more easily.
My plan for food tomorrow is
Breakfast: 1 bowl of cereal
1 banana
Milk
Lunch Spinach Salad
Watermelon
Snack PB and Jelly Sandwich
Before Dinner Four baby carrots
Dinner Grilled Salmon
Lots of Peas
Dessert Apple
I will do 30-60 minutes of yoga. (This depends on how long my kids nap.)
I need to remember to tolerate hunger and cravings and know that I can withstand them.
Breakfast Options
Cereal toast oatmeal malt o’meal
Milk 2 eggs milk milk
Banana canned fruit canned fruit canned fruit
Lunch Options
Salad
Fruit
And
Macaroni and cheese, or
Pasta with red sauce or
PB and Jelly Sandwich or
Egg Sandwich or
Ham Sandwich or
Chips and salsa (quesadilla for kids) or
Leftovers.
I am doing a great job following this book and planning. I will give myself no choice tomorrow and I will distract myself if I have cravings.
I think like a thin person.
Here is my Night Routine
Brush Teeth etc.
15 minute Tidy
Laundry
Write Tomorrow’s Meal Plan
Evaluate Today and Record Thoughts
Prayer
Read Next Day’s Plan
Check on 3yo to make sure he’s asleep
Tomorrow is the day I take control and eat like a thin person and become a thin person.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Be Persistent and Diligent to Win
I really liked the way this was put, “Lucifer will use his logic to confuse and his rationalizations to destroy. He will shade the meanings, open doors an inch at a time, and lead from purest white through all the shades of gray to the darkest black.” -Spencer W. Kimball. Isn’t that beautifully said?
Here is more that I liked, “He (Satan) moves slyly, whispering half-truths until he has his intended captives following him.”
Another that President Kimball says is “He analyzes carefully his problem and then moves forward diligently, methodically to reach that objective.” Are you on guard? With an enemy as diligent as the evil one, do you have your plan of attack?
The article I read then talks about the way to thwart Satan. I was going to quote more, but it is too good. I’d have to rewrite the entire thing so here is the link. It is awesome and talks about putting on the whole armor of God as it states in Ephezians 6:12-13 in the bible. Skip the first couple of sections if you are pressed for time and read the end because that is where we are taught how to withstand Satan and his evil. Enjoy.
Here is more that I liked, “He (Satan) moves slyly, whispering half-truths until he has his intended captives following him.”
Another that President Kimball says is “He analyzes carefully his problem and then moves forward diligently, methodically to reach that objective.” Are you on guard? With an enemy as diligent as the evil one, do you have your plan of attack?
The article I read then talks about the way to thwart Satan. I was going to quote more, but it is too good. I’d have to rewrite the entire thing so here is the link. It is awesome and talks about putting on the whole armor of God as it states in Ephezians 6:12-13 in the bible. Skip the first couple of sections if you are pressed for time and read the end because that is where we are taught how to withstand Satan and his evil. Enjoy.
Can't Remember What Day - book is upstairs :)
The things that I have been working on are sitting to eat, eating slowly and mindfully, rearranging my environment, taking the time to plan the diet, and committing to an exercise routine.
1. Stitting to eat – this I’m going well and do this most of the time . Yay! I will work on doing it all of the time.
2. Eating Slowly and Mindfully – This is so hard for me. I’m on turbo mode most of the time – which is why yoga is so good for me. That just gave me an idea. I’ll calm down before I eat and take some deep breaths. The breath is so underestimated. I’ll let you know how it goes.
3. Rearrange environment – Done. Junk food gone except a few chips that don’t tempt me much and chocolate chips. All are on a high shelf that I have to get a chair for. My husband has been so good and supportive. He loves sugary stuff, but was fine moving them or eliminating them.
4. I’m going to plan my menu on Fridays during nap time and plan my week on Saturdays. That is today and I hope to do it during nap time for 1 and 3yo and when 6 yo is at T-ball. (He had a fever this morning so we will see if he actually goes. I’d rather he didn’t, but that kid likes to be where the action is.)
5. Monday during nap time will be yoga.
Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday morning will be a pump class at the gym.
Wednesday will be walking/jogging or hills at the gym during nap time – (practicing to join hubby on some big hikes this year)
Friday Morning will be walking/ jogging or hills.
If I miss my normal time to exercise then I will make up for it later in the day. I don’t like to do it later in the day so hopefully that will be motivation.
Hubby and I have talked about ways to get the kids and ourselves into bed earlier so that I can make my early exercise times. (I won’t wake that early if I haven’t gotten enough sleep. One thing I value is enough sleep and I’ve also heard that not enough sleep can cause weight gain. Don’t know if that is true, but I liked the idea. :)
Today I plan on packing up 1yo in the storller and letting 6yo ride a bike and going for a walk before a BBQ with my hubby's new business partner and his family. (Hubby will be self-employed at the end of this week.)
1. Stitting to eat – this I’m going well and do this most of the time . Yay! I will work on doing it all of the time.
2. Eating Slowly and Mindfully – This is so hard for me. I’m on turbo mode most of the time – which is why yoga is so good for me. That just gave me an idea. I’ll calm down before I eat and take some deep breaths. The breath is so underestimated. I’ll let you know how it goes.
3. Rearrange environment – Done. Junk food gone except a few chips that don’t tempt me much and chocolate chips. All are on a high shelf that I have to get a chair for. My husband has been so good and supportive. He loves sugary stuff, but was fine moving them or eliminating them.
4. I’m going to plan my menu on Fridays during nap time and plan my week on Saturdays. That is today and I hope to do it during nap time for 1 and 3yo and when 6 yo is at T-ball. (He had a fever this morning so we will see if he actually goes. I’d rather he didn’t, but that kid likes to be where the action is.)
5. Monday during nap time will be yoga.
Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday morning will be a pump class at the gym.
Wednesday will be walking/jogging or hills at the gym during nap time – (practicing to join hubby on some big hikes this year)
Friday Morning will be walking/ jogging or hills.
If I miss my normal time to exercise then I will make up for it later in the day. I don’t like to do it later in the day so hopefully that will be motivation.
Hubby and I have talked about ways to get the kids and ourselves into bed earlier so that I can make my early exercise times. (I won’t wake that early if I haven’t gotten enough sleep. One thing I value is enough sleep and I’ve also heard that not enough sleep can cause weight gain. Don’t know if that is true, but I liked the idea. :)
Today I plan on packing up 1yo in the storller and letting 6yo ride a bike and going for a walk before a BBQ with my hubby's new business partner and his family. (Hubby will be self-employed at the end of this week.)
Friday, June 8, 2007
A Day In The Life of Me - Monday
I'm new at the posting picture things so you will notice that some of the early pictures needed to be rotated. I figured this out later, but had already spent so much time doing this that I didn't want to go bakc and fix it. Just tilt your head to the side. (I will post more days soon.)
6:30 Monday morning, 6yo and 1yo watch television while we wait for 3yo to wake.
Meanwhile, I start the laundry. It is Monday and my laundry is always busy on this day since I don't do laundry all weekend. I love folding laundry and the reason is because I listen to Womens' Conference while I work. It always lifts my spirits and helps me start the day thinking of how to be better in so many ways.
Done. I fold only as long as one talk is ~ 20 minutes.
Then I check my blog messages and emails and respond. I time myself for 10 minutes so I don't get carried away. (Mama, it actually looks like that might be your blog on the screen. LOL!)
Now everyone is awake and we will now clean the bedrooms. Everyone helps with everyones bedrooms. Teamwork. Here are the boys and here is the older boys' bedrooms - before we clean. The trick is that if the boys hurry and after each task say, "What can I do next?" Then we get pancakes for breakfast. If they lag then it is cold or hot cereal. They love pancakes or maybe it's the lake of syrup they put on top.
The boys did their job the way they should.
While I made pancakes they played.
After breakfast we all do our table chores. The 6yo and 3yo clear the table and put anything away that they can reach. I then do the dishes and wipe the counters and floors. While I finish my part of the chores then the boys play. Here is 1yo playing.
Kitchen is all clean. Now it is time to get everyone ready for a fun day.
On days that we eat anything with syrup we do not dress until after breakfast. If we are having something else then the dressin part happens when we are cleaning bedrooms. Here is 3yo dressing himself. he's having trouble with his zipper. We were going to a local amusement park with two of my brothers and their families as well as my parents. One of my brothers was unable to make it since he just had his first baby not long ago. We put all the kids in matching shirts that were bright so we could spot them easily. It worked really well and was cute to see all of the cousins walking around matching.
Hubby is assisted by 1yo while making lunch to eat on the way. 1yo loves horses and is often found holding one or a book with a horse in it.
We spent from 11Am to 6:30 PM at the park. It was a blast and the kids held up so much better than I thought they would. We have two cousins that live 7 minutes from the park and they invited us to a lunch there to get out of the heat and give the kids who needed it a little nap. That worked out so well. When we got home we all crashed - except 3yo. He was wound up and it took him awhile to calm down. Here is a pcture of 6yo in the bumper cars.
And that is the end of our Monday except I took 15 minutes to tidy the house before sleeping.
I will post a more normal day next. So check back in a few days.
6:30 Monday morning, 6yo and 1yo watch television while we wait for 3yo to wake.
Meanwhile, I start the laundry. It is Monday and my laundry is always busy on this day since I don't do laundry all weekend. I love folding laundry and the reason is because I listen to Womens' Conference while I work. It always lifts my spirits and helps me start the day thinking of how to be better in so many ways.
Done. I fold only as long as one talk is ~ 20 minutes.
Then I check my blog messages and emails and respond. I time myself for 10 minutes so I don't get carried away. (Mama, it actually looks like that might be your blog on the screen. LOL!)
Now everyone is awake and we will now clean the bedrooms. Everyone helps with everyones bedrooms. Teamwork. Here are the boys and here is the older boys' bedrooms - before we clean. The trick is that if the boys hurry and after each task say, "What can I do next?" Then we get pancakes for breakfast. If they lag then it is cold or hot cereal. They love pancakes or maybe it's the lake of syrup they put on top.
The boys did their job the way they should.
While I made pancakes they played.
After breakfast we all do our table chores. The 6yo and 3yo clear the table and put anything away that they can reach. I then do the dishes and wipe the counters and floors. While I finish my part of the chores then the boys play. Here is 1yo playing.
Kitchen is all clean. Now it is time to get everyone ready for a fun day.
On days that we eat anything with syrup we do not dress until after breakfast. If we are having something else then the dressin part happens when we are cleaning bedrooms. Here is 3yo dressing himself. he's having trouble with his zipper. We were going to a local amusement park with two of my brothers and their families as well as my parents. One of my brothers was unable to make it since he just had his first baby not long ago. We put all the kids in matching shirts that were bright so we could spot them easily. It worked really well and was cute to see all of the cousins walking around matching.
Hubby is assisted by 1yo while making lunch to eat on the way. 1yo loves horses and is often found holding one or a book with a horse in it.
We spent from 11Am to 6:30 PM at the park. It was a blast and the kids held up so much better than I thought they would. We have two cousins that live 7 minutes from the park and they invited us to a lunch there to get out of the heat and give the kids who needed it a little nap. That worked out so well. When we got home we all crashed - except 3yo. He was wound up and it took him awhile to calm down. Here is a pcture of 6yo in the bumper cars.
And that is the end of our Monday except I took 15 minutes to tidy the house before sleeping.
I will post a more normal day next. So check back in a few days.
Thursday, June 7, 2007
Day Four
Today was to give myself credit. I will do this every time I check in here. At then end of the day I will list what I did that was great.
Today I sat down to eat most of the time and even passed up eating a cookie because I wasn’t where I could sit down.
I am looking forward to starting the diet part of this plan because I feel I’m eating like crazy because I know what is coming up. I will try to tone that down.
Here is my check list for today
1. Looked at my Advantages Response Card (reasons for losing weight)
2. Created a reminder system for giving myself credit.
3. Sat Down to eat – most of the time.
Here is what I’m thinking of for an updated diet.
Breakfast – cereal, banana, milk (Saturday and Mothers/Fathers Day and Christmas – big breakfast.)
Lunch – salad, fruit, some main dish
Dinner – Main Dish and two vegetables
Dessert – Fruit
*Portion Control
*No seconds
*Lots of Water
This is not a detailed diet. I don’t know if it will work. If it doesn’t then I will calorie count.
Tomorrow is eating slowly and mindfully. This will be hard because I usually have to hurry because my kids are always on the go.
Today I sat down to eat most of the time and even passed up eating a cookie because I wasn’t where I could sit down.
I am looking forward to starting the diet part of this plan because I feel I’m eating like crazy because I know what is coming up. I will try to tone that down.
Here is my check list for today
1. Looked at my Advantages Response Card (reasons for losing weight)
2. Created a reminder system for giving myself credit.
3. Sat Down to eat – most of the time.
Here is what I’m thinking of for an updated diet.
Breakfast – cereal, banana, milk (Saturday and Mothers/Fathers Day and Christmas – big breakfast.)
Lunch – salad, fruit, some main dish
Dinner – Main Dish and two vegetables
Dessert – Fruit
*Portion Control
*No seconds
*Lots of Water
This is not a detailed diet. I don’t know if it will work. If it doesn’t then I will calorie count.
Tomorrow is eating slowly and mindfully. This will be hard because I usually have to hurry because my kids are always on the go.
The Fight
Today I read a chapter in the Book of Mormon and then read about Fortifying Ourselves against Evil Influences in Spencer W. Kimball’s Volume of Teaching of the Presidents of the Church. A quote that I wanted to share about the fight against Satan is that it “is not a little skirmish with a half-willed antagonist, but a battle royal with an enemy so powerful, entrenched, and organized that we are likely to be vanquished if we are not strong, well-trained, and watchful.” That made me think. What are you doing to fortify yourself? It is not enough to go along your way not thinking about the fight. We must be proactive.
Isn’t it so interesting that it is easier for people to believe in the Devil rather than God. I think this is because so many of us have felt his evil influence to some degree. He will force wickedness on anyone that doesn’t have their guard up. God is different. He doesn’t force. He allows us to come to him and if we are willing he will let us feel of His light.
Peter cautioned us: “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour” (1 Peter 5:8). Devour is such an interesting word choice. If you see someone under Satan’s influence their spirit is devoured. It is easy to see this with drugs, alcohol or pornography, but what about self-pity. Self-pity is not of God. I would bet most people reading this don’t have a problem with the first three addictions, but self-pity sneaks in like the snake himself. If Satan can get mothers to pity themselves and begin to be selfish, then he can eventually claim the entire family. I know there are times that I fall into this. This is not the Spirit of God. If you are living with the spirit you have hope, peace, and optimism. Pay attention to your inner feelings. Are they of God? If they are not then you need to make the changes necessary. If your feelings are not of God then you must strengthen your defenses and fight back.
Isn’t it so interesting that it is easier for people to believe in the Devil rather than God. I think this is because so many of us have felt his evil influence to some degree. He will force wickedness on anyone that doesn’t have their guard up. God is different. He doesn’t force. He allows us to come to him and if we are willing he will let us feel of His light.
Peter cautioned us: “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour” (1 Peter 5:8). Devour is such an interesting word choice. If you see someone under Satan’s influence their spirit is devoured. It is easy to see this with drugs, alcohol or pornography, but what about self-pity. Self-pity is not of God. I would bet most people reading this don’t have a problem with the first three addictions, but self-pity sneaks in like the snake himself. If Satan can get mothers to pity themselves and begin to be selfish, then he can eventually claim the entire family. I know there are times that I fall into this. This is not the Spirit of God. If you are living with the spirit you have hope, peace, and optimism. Pay attention to your inner feelings. Are they of God? If they are not then you need to make the changes necessary. If your feelings are not of God then you must strengthen your defenses and fight back.
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Day Two
There have been a couple of times I have popped something in my mouth while standing. The thing that I’m proud of is that every time I did I went to the nearest chair and sat down to finish. At one point, when I was about to eat something while standing up, I decided against eating it because I didn’t want to go all the way to a chair to enjoy. That was great.
I made a cookie recipe from Zonya’s Health Bites the PBS show – love that show. The cookies were great and fat free. I accidently ate a few when I was standing. I didn’t even think about it.
One thing I have problems with is eating when I’m not hungry. I do this all the time. I know I’m not hungry, but I decide to eat anyway. I just want to eat. I guess I’ll really have to get to the bottom of why I want to eat and find something to replace that. I will continue to read and hopefully I’ll get an answer.
I read these things on the Beck Diet Solution Blog page and really liked it. “Maria reminded Brenda of how good and empowering it feels when you are strong and stick to your diet.”
Referring to a hamburger Brenda had eaten at a mother’s day gathering after her planned chicken salad it said, “Chances are if Brenda had forced herself to sit down and face the hamburger, she might have been able to really notice what she was doing and talk herself out of eating unplanned food. “
It said when referring to Maria who has lost 57 pounds. “She doesn’t make exceptions in her eating, such as eating more because it’s a special occasion.” She also said, “She doesn’t have ‘good’ foods and ‘bad’ foods, because she knows she can work anything into her diet, as long as she plans it. She consistently gives herself credit for all of her positive diet and exercise-related behaviors, so that she continues to build her confidence and sense of control.”
Tomorrow I will be focusing on giving myself credit. I will list all the temptations that I excaped.
I made a cookie recipe from Zonya’s Health Bites the PBS show – love that show. The cookies were great and fat free. I accidently ate a few when I was standing. I didn’t even think about it.
One thing I have problems with is eating when I’m not hungry. I do this all the time. I know I’m not hungry, but I decide to eat anyway. I just want to eat. I guess I’ll really have to get to the bottom of why I want to eat and find something to replace that. I will continue to read and hopefully I’ll get an answer.
I read these things on the Beck Diet Solution Blog page and really liked it. “Maria reminded Brenda of how good and empowering it feels when you are strong and stick to your diet.”
Referring to a hamburger Brenda had eaten at a mother’s day gathering after her planned chicken salad it said, “Chances are if Brenda had forced herself to sit down and face the hamburger, she might have been able to really notice what she was doing and talk herself out of eating unplanned food. “
It said when referring to Maria who has lost 57 pounds. “She doesn’t make exceptions in her eating, such as eating more because it’s a special occasion.” She also said, “She doesn’t have ‘good’ foods and ‘bad’ foods, because she knows she can work anything into her diet, as long as she plans it. She consistently gives herself credit for all of her positive diet and exercise-related behaviors, so that she continues to build her confidence and sense of control.”
Tomorrow I will be focusing on giving myself credit. I will list all the temptations that I excaped.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Day One
Today has gone really well. I started at ground one and read my reasons for wanting to be thinner and really thought about how important each one is for me. I also have been visualizing myself going the things on the list.
Yesterday and today I have been with my brothers and their families as well as my parents. We went to an amusement park yesterday and today the zoo. I didn’t diet, but have been taking baby steps. I have noticed that I’m more aware of my munching which will help when I start implementing more of the Dr. Beck’s diet solutions.
Tomorrow I will move to day three – eat sitting down. Day two is just picking your diet and I don’t need to spend time doing that. I think this is soooo key. Any binge I do is always sitting down. I never put an entire piece of cake on my plate and sit properly at the dinner table so I think I really need to make sure I master this task. I often snitch things off the kids’ plates when they are done eating. (For those who don’t have kids you may think this is gross. Keep that mindset! It will keep many extra calories out of your body.) Or I take little tastes of dinner as I’m cooking. I can still taste test dinner – at least until I implement my diet – but I must be sitting. I can still eat an entire cake, but I just have to sit to do it. Baby steps! (Don’t worry I won’t eat an entire cake and I’ve actually never done that, but I sure have wanted to!)
So as long as tonight I read my reasons, then tomorrow it will be sit down Wednesday.
Yesterday and today I have been with my brothers and their families as well as my parents. We went to an amusement park yesterday and today the zoo. I didn’t diet, but have been taking baby steps. I have noticed that I’m more aware of my munching which will help when I start implementing more of the Dr. Beck’s diet solutions.
Tomorrow I will move to day three – eat sitting down. Day two is just picking your diet and I don’t need to spend time doing that. I think this is soooo key. Any binge I do is always sitting down. I never put an entire piece of cake on my plate and sit properly at the dinner table so I think I really need to make sure I master this task. I often snitch things off the kids’ plates when they are done eating. (For those who don’t have kids you may think this is gross. Keep that mindset! It will keep many extra calories out of your body.) Or I take little tastes of dinner as I’m cooking. I can still taste test dinner – at least until I implement my diet – but I must be sitting. I can still eat an entire cake, but I just have to sit to do it. Baby steps! (Don’t worry I won’t eat an entire cake and I’ve actually never done that, but I sure have wanted to!)
So as long as tonight I read my reasons, then tomorrow it will be sit down Wednesday.
Monday, June 4, 2007
Do Over
You know when you are playing a game when you are a kid and it doesn’t turn out the way you want so you say, “Do over.” Well this is a do over. I’m starting back at Day 1. I’m going to stay on Day 1 longer. I’m not going to diet until Dr. Beck suggests. I’m playing by the rules this time.
So Day 1 will be tomorrow and what I will do is make sure I read my reasons for being thin in the morning when I wake and just before I go to bed.
I will do this right!
So Day 1 will be tomorrow and what I will do is make sure I read my reasons for being thin in the morning when I wake and just before I go to bed.
I will do this right!
Sunday, June 3, 2007
Day 5 Again
So I’m doing eat slowly and mindfully again and I’ll do it until I succeed at least for one day.
I ate enough food today for two people. On the up side, at least I have the Beck Diet Solution to help me in the future.
I need to
Eat sitting down
Only eat at meal times
Eat Slowly
Do not get second helpings
I can do this slowly-sit-meals. Slowly-sit-meals. Say it with me slowly-sit-meals.
My sister-in-law came to our house today for a BBQ and looked great. I want to look that great. We inspire others by being all that we can be, not by being mediocre. Wow, that was good. You can quote me on that one. ;)
I ate enough food today for two people. On the up side, at least I have the Beck Diet Solution to help me in the future.
I need to
Eat sitting down
Only eat at meal times
Eat Slowly
Do not get second helpings
I can do this slowly-sit-meals. Slowly-sit-meals. Say it with me slowly-sit-meals.
My sister-in-law came to our house today for a BBQ and looked great. I want to look that great. We inspire others by being all that we can be, not by being mediocre. Wow, that was good. You can quote me on that one. ;)
Saturday, June 2, 2007
Day 5
Day 5
Today I was supposed to be taking it slow and eating mindfully. I messed upa bit because last night I didn’t take the time to write what I was going to be eating today. I thought I could just go with the flow and eat carefully. Not so. Iwent with the flow and ate the way I have been the past 9 months when I have gained 20 pounds.
Now to giving myself credit. It was one day. I will plan what I will eat tomorrow right now.
Breatfast and Lunch – fasting. In my church we fast for two meals one time a month. Then the money we would have spent on food we give to the church and 100% of the money is spent for the needy. It is a great program and our church helps millions with relief across the world all because of donations. So these meals are easy to plan.
Dinner – BBQ with my family. I will eat one hamburger with toppings, a few chips with dip, and a spoonful of potato salad. Fruit will be for dessert.
My kids’ breakfast will be cereal. Lunch will be peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Dinner will be whatever they choose from the spread.
Today I was supposed to be taking it slow and eating mindfully. I messed upa bit because last night I didn’t take the time to write what I was going to be eating today. I thought I could just go with the flow and eat carefully. Not so. Iwent with the flow and ate the way I have been the past 9 months when I have gained 20 pounds.
Now to giving myself credit. It was one day. I will plan what I will eat tomorrow right now.
Breatfast and Lunch – fasting. In my church we fast for two meals one time a month. Then the money we would have spent on food we give to the church and 100% of the money is spent for the needy. It is a great program and our church helps millions with relief across the world all because of donations. So these meals are easy to plan.
Dinner – BBQ with my family. I will eat one hamburger with toppings, a few chips with dip, and a spoonful of potato salad. Fruit will be for dessert.
My kids’ breakfast will be cereal. Lunch will be peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Dinner will be whatever they choose from the spread.
Friday, June 1, 2007
Day Four
Give yourself credit.
I am dieting even though Dr. Beck said to wait until the second week. I want to start now, but it has been hard. I took seconds at dinner and at a wonderful treat my hubby made, but other than that, I stayed on track. I had a lunch planned and forgot I was going to meet a bunch of moms at my friends to let the kids play in the water. So I sat and ate what lunch I could and ate the rest when I got home which was 3:00pm. That is huge for me. Normally I would have grabbed anything and munched the entire time we visited.
I will post what I’m going to eat tomorrow later tonight. Right now hubby and I are going to watch a movie while our kiddos watch their movie.
I am dieting even though Dr. Beck said to wait until the second week. I want to start now, but it has been hard. I took seconds at dinner and at a wonderful treat my hubby made, but other than that, I stayed on track. I had a lunch planned and forgot I was going to meet a bunch of moms at my friends to let the kids play in the water. So I sat and ate what lunch I could and ate the rest when I got home which was 3:00pm. That is huge for me. Normally I would have grabbed anything and munched the entire time we visited.
I will post what I’m going to eat tomorrow later tonight. Right now hubby and I are going to watch a movie while our kiddos watch their movie.
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